up to you Lyrics

I don't understand this world

I'm just a girl

At least I think I am

He play wit my pearl

I'm in his curls

We do the freakum dance

Everybody runnin way from sumn

That's jus how it be

Vices in my sinus an my lungs

An I'm still tryna grieve

I can't quite escape from the clutches of my hometown

How everybody know me

But I'm lonely in my home now

Been fightin fire wit more fire

Tired of the smoke cloud

Convo gettin drier ima liar and he know now

I just keep surviving

Guess Allah must got a plan for me

I just keep on writin

Cuz one day my seeds gon sample me

I got a lot of heavy shit

I've burned so many bridges

I got flames all in my footsteps

I'll let God be my witness

Ima blaze a trail

For the next gen to do this

Fuck a holy grail

We need goddamn revolution

I'm not perfect and the truth is

Ima burden and a nuisance

I can't blame you if you leave me

Cuz I'm hurtin and I'm stupid

Only 21, I'm one of one

Lil rough around the edges

And they show me love when I get done

Performin my whole set list

I'm an anomaly, hypocrisy

A walking contradiction

Only one of my personalities is battling addiction

They not gon get it

Got a vision

Can't be sure I'll see it through

I pray someday that you gon listen Realize change starts within you

We're all the same

But you can choose

What the fuck you wanna do

Life gon take away your youth

Will you live or will you lose?

Mm

Life's a bitch but I am too

The curse of men is we gon sin

But in the end it's up to you

Huh

And I think you sense the truth

We can't pretend we ain't subdued

In the end it's up to you

I don't understand this world

I'm just a girl

At least I think I am

He play wit my pearl

I'm in his curls

We do the freakum dance

Everybody runnin way from sumn

That's jus how it be

Vices in my sinus an my lungs

An I'm still tryna grieve

I only let him fill me up

Cuz maybe then I won't be empty

And I'm romancin these drugs

Cuz ain't no love left in the city

Lately I been fuckin stuck

I'm gettin numb to all the critiques

I jus pour another cup

Til I'm so drunk I've lost my memory

When they try to snuff your spark

It's gettin dark

But don't lose faith now

You a work of art and you a star

You ain't gon stay down

You know who you are

It's in your heart

It's what you're made of

We all play a part

Go build your ark

You know the way love

Life gon take away your youth

Will you live or will you lose

Life's a bitch but I am too

The curse of men is we gon sin

But in the end it's up to you

Huh

In the end it's up you

Life's a bitch but I am too

The curse of men is we gon sin

But in the end you get to choose

But in the end it's up to you yuh