session 1 ft. Footless Jo Lyrics

They tell me, tempo, you're too lazy

Everybody's goin' through the same thing

I be sittin' tryin' to explain things but how can I explain

When I cannot even say things

Overwhelmed by the second, soaked in depression

I never ever wanna be a lesson

But my best is never good enough, I keep effin up

I never knew I had anxiety

Saw myself as little, but I'm mighty

I never knew what the feeling might be

I had to ignore it like my ig

Used to never take anything lightly

Now I'm people pleasing, so they like me

Damn, that aint even like me

Promise I would never wanna fight me

Damn, lover of piece

They say I miss the old you, the way that you speak

Used to never give a fuck, impossible to reach

Now you hangin' with these kids and they abusing your peace

And you can't do nothin

Disrespect that you can't do nothin'

Ain't got no self-worth, cause you ain't grew nothin'

Feel you ain't worth shit, cause you ain't drop nothin'

108 gang, man, I miss my brothers

Damn man no one could've been above us

And I ain't even crock city reppin' no more

Moved to the capital, had to get more

Tellin' me, tempo, you ain't got no story

Tempo, you sounding like tory

Not enough to get on my stage

Now guess who's the god of performance

This year, man, I lost my faith

2018, I create a leap of faith

I was in church couldn't hold back tears

Thought I would never ever break down in public

What have I done to deserve this pain

Honestly eh, to me its just insane

Every day, every day, every day, every day

Lookin' for a piece of the peace every frickin' day

Battle scars on my left arm

Victorious, they callin' it self-harm

Grateful to everybody who stayed through this phase

Promise I'ma get back, give me a couple of days

I don't know years, I don't even care

These are my fears

I don been battling for so many years

Where is my peace

Everybody's leavin', I need me

Depression is really confusing

Everything I do seems to tell me more

Like its never gonna be okay

And you can't do it, and you're not capable and

, like, all of that, and I'm so paralyzed

Because as much as I might mentally know, like, as a human being

I have the capacity to get things done

I have the capacity, but I don't

And I, I just, I just crash and burn

I feel like I am failing everyone

Like, everything that happens is just another reminder

Of how I'm not enough, and I'm, like, fucking everything up

And I know how it feels like

to not be able to think straight

Because I can tell you rationally that, like,

my mind is not working right

And it's frightening I know in my brain

I'm an intelligent, capable, creative, driven,

passionate, responsible, great person

But then all this darkness hits

And it's like that's literally erased from my identity

in these hours or days or weeks

And it's probably confusing for people who are around me

And I don't know how to get out of this

I won't ever stop fighting

I won't ever stop figuring out a way through

And I've been in similar places before

And I know that it passes

I know that there's a way through it

But I also know that I can't think straight right now

And I have no idea what it looks like

And for anyone, I guess, who doesn't know

I just wanted to show you what depression looks like