brothers to me. Lyrics

If I fall first, will you follow

If I fall first, will you follow

I got a friend, but we don't talk

Battling depression, losing to dark

I wish I gave him a piece of my heart

But it's hard to mend something apart

Whether you're rich or whether you're poor

There's nothing more worth than where you start

And battling demons, I know it's hard

But I can't watch you kill yourself and leave the family scarred

See, what you need to believe is all the things that you can't see

And maybe that's the reason that I always put the blame on me

Cause how can I help you when I can't help myself

And I don't know what hurts more

Knowing that you changed or that I could've done more

And I know that you catch the vibe since we barely speak

When your birthday passed, not a single call or text to speech

And them times we shared, it stuck on my mind on repeat

Cause we were more than friends, you was a brother to me

And you helped me overcome something other than me

And I know these words are cutting you deep

If I fall first, will you follow

If I fall first, will you follow

I got a friend, but we don't speak

Similar trauma, but more than me

Watched his parents die before 16

Met each other in 17', we were both 18 with big dreams

Talking about our journeys, we had hope to do big things

In 2018, he said that he's gonna write a book

In 2018, I said that I'd go and drop my hooks

We working everyday until our dreams could come true

And even when the rumors started to spread, I thought they was untrue

Only 18 hours apart from birth, so how could that be you

I thought we was family until the end, I guess that wasn't proved

Two flowers from the concrete can coexist, we never grew

That's why you stabbed me in my back for something that I never knew

It's hard to hold emotions back with my attitude

But I'm a man so I won't disrespect you or be rude

So I forgive you, but for me there's no going back

Cause I can't have a snake inside my circle ready to attack