Letter To My Past Self Lyrics

Blade to my casket, I write to you now, to ask a simple thing

Who are you? What could've we been in another life

Where worlds cross and interconnect like past lives

All I ever did was pass the time, listening on as the current passes me by

Introspective, I guess, am I blessed for the test

You survived life, a fall, that must mean there's a chance

Fighter like bland, with the shank, you a dog

Where's the rest of it all

Talking nonsense, forget the fall

I had a dream, I was king on top of nine

As I looked at Michael, on top of Eiffel

Smoking that haze, looking up on the world I craved

Mirror, can't look myself in the mirror

Endless nights spent awake cause I fear her

You can never deal with the hate I bet ya

Cause the love comes in parade, I got enough on my plate

Introspective, But i love my weight, the baggage I carry

To reach an unknown, may the dimensions open up and swallow me whole

For the home you could go, but never see it, for he beat you, didn't he

No, what's the excuse? Fuck the world, that's on you

Dipped on everyone that cared, that's like you

Don't fight you, rather go homeless than defend your title

That's just like you, run away from it all

Fuck the rest, it was a fucking test

Now, you got a whole life to rest, battle with the best

For this, cycle, make you crazy, got you lazy

Sitting around, looking at the sky, wondering when life will pass you by

But you're still scared shitless

So why did you fuck up your image

That's just like you, no one ever really liked you

Put you in the cycle, rinse, burn off your prints

You're not real, fuck the world, that's the real

For the one I cant attain

Hear the sounds, it's all encompassing

Hear the arguments, it's in passing

The way to greet, the way to eat, hear before sleep

Is there another world where I can blink

Without moving my eyes at all, past time like the fall

You're at the end of the road, parting the fog, brain, fuck it all

Think of the wrong things, make me lonely, but am I really though

Think a little more, cause unlike others I have a bless

Need put life to the test, battle like I said with the best

Conquer the dungeon I fear, fuck fear, it's bravery

To look ahead full hearted, letter to my past self

Work harder, look to the future

Try today, forget about the pain

Need to put in effort to get play

Don't matter the stray, darkness is the works

Light is all, diamonds crushed to a pall

I see bells they ringing, I see myself grinning

Look across the aisle, I see death

Two steps back, it's a test

Find a new way, I digress

Help from the old me, JK I'll do the rest

OP for the test, wasting time while they take the crest

Need to find the fire, need to find the worth, purpose

Try to find it, music ain't working, I'll bite it

More time wasted, relapse again, put myself to work for them

History keeps repeating, where's the source

It's the thirst, straight from the mouth, the belly that feeds

The one that shows greed, sights to see

Personally I've been feeling well, but when does the well drain

When's the end of my day? Letter to my past self

Fuck you, letter to the present me

Fuck you, letter to the future me

Im sorry