Lost Lyrics

I was 15, living with some big dreams

Grew up in a small town, never in the city

Walking into class, ain't nobody sitting with me

Always on my own, that's the way that I was living

Writing every night, tunnel vision all I did see

Had a dream in mind, wouldn't ever picture quitting

Everybody would laugh, bringing out the anger in me

No one took me seriously, nobody was listening

They didn't understand the way the music reaches deep

Into the the person I've become to ease the pain inside my head

'Member how that feeling stayed persistent every night I was alive

So I would slit my wrist while wishing I were dead

Diving into music was the only thing that kept me sane

Throughout those days when life would hold a knife up to my throat

But I then became so powerful the moment that I realized

That I didn't need nobody, I could do it on my own, I need a moment to myself

Just leave me all alone, if they ask I'm doing well

Don't tell me that you're with me, I don't want your help

Suppressing my emotions, keep them to myself

Doesn't matter how I feel or how I felt

Cos you don't care, no one does, I've learned that now

And you weren't there, I'm quiet but these words come loud

Yeah I'm proud but I'm not satisfied, seen before the black and white

I've pondered of a life without the music, and I'd rather die

And yo I thank god

He helped me turn this pain into a great cause

And I'd be lying if i said I could've done it on my own

Demonstrating how to persevere through rainfall

I never once implied that all the pains gone

It stays strong, and it's crushing when the weights falls

When I can barely see a thing inside the gray fog

It's so cold, someone tell why I stay lost

The labyrinth's not consistent

A pattern alway missing

My feelings locked in prison

Not a single soul would listen

And nothings changed

Maybe there's no way out

Still, nothings changed

Why am I still so lost now?

They think my hearts a weapon

A common misconception

I've looked to my reflection

Tried unfolding all these questions

But nothings changed

Maybe there's no way out

Still, nothings changed

Why am I still so lost now?

Years of the torture without any change

Let people in but they never remained

Opened my heart up to then be reminded

The reason I kept it restrained in the cage

Hard on myself cos I need to improve

Born as a misfit, but making some room

Push myself harder than any of you

There ain't nobody working as much as I do

Work until I am dead or until I'm alive

Limited options, I have to survive

So many goals that will stack in my mind

Will I achieve them? I'll happen to try

Tenacity is vital living on a tightrope

Looked into the mirror, found that I'm my only rival

I remember nights when I was feeling suicidal

I've given all I have, someone tell me why I'm still lost

Yeah, why am I still lost?

Lost