Hate Myself ft. Michael Gagne Lyrics

Let the pain come as we go

Throw my hope out the window

Hanging onto the times back when

I didn't hate myself

Thinking back to 2019 I was drinking everyday

I gained a little buzz I was feeling hella great

Cause Blackout played in Italy that started all this fate

Like That a quarter mil the flow shot up out the gates then I

Booked a show in Chicago

A week later turned inmate in bright clothes

A cheap chaser tried to dictate my life goals

A mistake I can't escape that's how life goes

Restricted by fear addicted to lies

Drown myself in liquor it's a toxic mixture tonight

Hate myself inside zero chance of ending the fight

Only time I feel alive is when I rap on the mic

Ayo all my peers judging and why my family hating?

And when I step in church why they look at me like Satan?

It's like I need saving downing in temptation

Trying to stay afloat from life's trials and tribulations

I'm posting on the internet to motivate myself

I'm faking like I'm happy burning through my mental health

And then I found music learned to smile at some things

I learned to let it all live between the guitar strings like

Let the pain come as we go

Throw my hope out the window

Hanging onto the times back when

I didn't hate myself

Let it all go for nothing

Live it all up for something

Looking back on the times back when

I didn't hate myself

Looking in the mirror got me feeling like it's Halloween

All I see's a mask on a face saying follow me

Walking in the dark strange faces I can barely breathe

Trying to find my safe space mayday I'm reaching deep

Teaching me get some help straighten out your own path

Home wrath breaking all this shit your hurt it's so sad

So mad know you are you're just like him it's so bad

So glad that I never gave up on this notepad woah Dad

I just need to straighten out my act though

Walking out of central broken dreams downed my last hope

Weighing on my mental blood stains on the flagstone

Cocked and ready cause I've been living in the blast zone

Everything with music I did it on my damn own

No after no I went and used that shit for ammo

Fast flow overrated mainstream like its Bass Pro

Task closed ain't impressed with no one that is half clothed

Used to be a class clown but I rap now

Don't care how much they talk man I'll never back down

I finally found peace learned to love and forgive

Just pass it down to my kids let my legacy live like

Forced me down to my last breath

Faced the demons of my death

Now I'm back to the days when I

I couldn't hate myself

Crawling back up from nothing

Knowing I could be something

Growing into the days when I

I couldn't hate my self