Proud? Lyrics

Final letter to close any doors

See I wrote you a text but didn't send it

I didn't know if I meant it

If I put it on a beat you better know that I felt it

Either way

These are the cards I've been dealt with

Might not seem bad to others

But I still can't forgive

And I've got my mum's lip

But head to toe you know they see me as my dad's kid

Never felt this to begin with

Apple of my eye even got me into business

It wasn't on my wish list

Passion for music, but I followed your instincts

Abandoned my feelings

Couldn't see the wall revision covered to the ceiling

Undercover dreaming

Plotting all along I call it undercover scheming

This ain't the way I once felt before

You see I love my mum

But loved my dad more

And saying that now burns my heart to the core

She gave me everything and all you done was ignore

All the support that she'd plead

Through the struggles you can't see

You taught me to believe

Independence is key

Expecting a teen to know what she needs

Lemme ask you your plea Innocent or guilty

If you're listening now it's best to turn it off

My words weren't enough to get my point across

You keep shutting me down, like Microsoft

Like the kid in IT waan piss me off

Broken heart once you wanna add to the feeling

Scumbag of a man to force his daughter to believe that she's worthless

Should've never had a purpose I'm hurting

There's only one thing to be certain

You break me down more than any other person

And your words they're infecting me

You call me selfish and arrogant and it's affecting me

When you never planted respecting in me

So being unruly is my destiny

And I can't keep up cause you're letting me down

How can we be closer, you're never around

Please get to know me I been tryna make you proud

Not on a heartless ting but I'm an artist

So I write how I'm feeling regardless

And my self-esteem has no part in this

I put my heart in this but I still can't forgive

You're a hypocrite let alone a narcissist

Left emotional scars that you can't witness

Knife through my heart and it's pouring and

Scaring you can't ask me why I stay laughing

Mentally kicked in the door

It was locked before and now I can't believe we walked the same floor

My eyes are burning still sore

Said you'd support me you swore

Why you lying for?

You're like a child in a kids store

Playing with the toys knowing that you don't need more

Up-and-down seesaw

I begged for you to see me more

Personal dig, take it personally

Personality ain't a match for we

Putting in work to watch it crumble and please

Don't put in work if you're planning to leave

Don't sit through life wishing for them to be

And don't put pressure on your kid to see

Someone you're not there's no purpose

Being self-aware and strong making you nervous?

You left me alone forcing me to be strong

Let alone you're still stringing me along

But you're never in the wrong

Won't listen to my hurt so I put it in a song

You won't pick up a diamond from the dirt

Just cause it scratched you think that it's lost all its worth

But you're worthless

Should've never had a purpose you're burning

There's only one thing to be certain

You break me down more than any other person.

But your words ain't infecting me

You call me selfish and arrogant like it's affecting me

But you never planted respecting in me

So being unruly is my destiny

And I can't keep up cause you're letting me down

How can we be closer, you're never around

Couldn't get to know me so fuck making you proud.

Mum covered your lies

Gave them somewhere to hide

But she always knew you were the bad guy

And I'm not even gonna ask why

A daughter needs her dad

But it's you who'll have the last cry

You put the I in fight

I crossed the T and dot the I

Write my name and then I sign

Burned this letter to the sky

Goodbye