6AM In Carolina Lyrics

Where do I begin, do I start where it ends

Not sure how to go about it 'cause a lot has happened since

And it's hard to open up truthfully without a hit

I got so used to writing pain I forgot to soak it in

But you know I feel it now more than ever before

I mean I don't know how the signs were hard to ignore

My body soar and my core hitting down to the bone

I'm in my zone more alone than Tupac Shamir

That's her favorite rapper bumping Brenda's got a baby while her father yelling at her

Only thing I sought to do was help her ease up on the pain

'Cause I knew people like her that now take coke to the brain

And I know they could be doing better

These letters never seem to hit them right

I don't know how much clearer I can make it when they hear me write

Trust me dog I am not what you think

I've seen more at 15 then a bitch eating cake

Cold blooded murder and drugs take my family

Plus you walking out they brought the icing already

Palms sweaty arms heavy and my heart has been empty

Will I make it to twenty I'll probably die before granny

I'll always be alone because I can't open up

My friends only know what I'm like outside

And I try I really do to give them a sign

But this mics the only place where I don't feel judged

They ask how I'm doing and I tell them I'm fine

But truthfully I'm probably the worst I've ever been

And momma always said it's not good to tell lies

But what they don't know can't hurt and it's all a win win

But that night seems to trouble me now looking back

Talked for hours on the phone laughed at the jokes we would crack

Biggest lack of care we would talk on the daily

Made me feel it in the air like that beans song baby

Then I woke up next morning to it all crashing

Heart thrashing eyes flashing another guy you were smashing

Put the shit up on tape like hanging grades on the fridge

Future said she for the streets thought you was a custom made bitch

Months passed by I'm getting back to myself

Woke up to phone calls whos this calling at 12

I got school the next morning but fuck it might be important

Only called me 5 times back to back a 305

Number hitting my line answered you back on my cell

17 with a dream it seems you not doing well

Should've hung up then but I cared so oh well

You out drinking in Miami ain't tell yo momma the hell

I could tell you was drunk went and bought a hotel

So you could chill for the night power off like a dell

In the back of the trunk a couple cases that fell

When you opened it up the sight left my body to swell

Maybe we'd talk the next morning get you out of that shell

'Cause like a damn turtle you tryna hide from the pain

And trust me I know it best sometimes you need space

But you can't face the issue if your running away

Shit faced ducking calls from your momma for days

This ain't the way you was raised don't go getting new ways

You got me thinking your love was a act like a play

I know the pressure starts to weigh hoping for you it's a phase

Sun rise you called back had a lot to explain

Told me your heart was in pieces at least what remained

Things haven't been the same said you was going insane

And I would feel bad if you didn't cheat the first place

Told me you were sorry said it was all a mistake

You ended things off talking that I need a break

Said suicides on your mind don't know how much I can take

This coming from the cheater fucking crazy to think

Just drink the pain away until you can't look straight

At this rate I hear the casket and it's calling your name

Look I really feel bad but I am not who to blame

Living life in the past I know too much of that game

And how you got a new man but still get reminded of me

No posts on IG are y'all not official

Or officially together only known him for a semester

Tryna track down my heart like owing a bill collector

My feelings are gone now I don't feel the love

Finally back to my thoughts i was hurt being stuck

Crazy how one text could get everything exed

And like cooking scrambled eggs you'll get chopped up next

I hope you treat him better then you did me

I hope you show him real love not just fake scenes

I hope that you'll be happy by whatever means

Thank you for the time and all the memories