I thought about it Lyrics

I definitely thought about suicide a couple times, even though I show no signs

Smiling to my teeth, for my grandma I be grinning

Sending to my keep, for the people that be winning

Who gon' tell me how to be a man when I'm stunted

Lack of emotional empathy, cause my mama thinks I'm a narc instead

I been feeding all on my demons, releasing all of my pain that bothers the keepings

I was only getting started for a little bit

Take a sip, that's that real shit, nigga take a shit

And if you wanna get to know me, that's it

I'm consciously catching shit, if you catch my drift

I think my mama hates me, cause I look like shit

Cause if I look like shit, that means I am a bitch

And if I am a bitch, that means I look like my father

In her eyes, I'm a rodent

If you wanna play so stupid, I'ma decode it

Cause I ain't call my father a bitch, that's what my mom calls it

And I been thinking for a way out

Ever since I lost myself, I been way out

I don't do no fucking drugs, but I'm fucking loaded

Shotgun with the slugs means I'm way loaded

I definitely thought about suicide a couple times, even though I show no signs

Smiling to my teeth for my grandma, I be grinning

Sending to my keep for the people that be winning