scared to Lyrics

Since 11 I've been on a straight set path,

Whole lot doubted me,

But I know where I'm really at,

And even though I know I'm destined to be,

I've been too scared to love,

And I know that ain't just me,

Been afraid of turning older since 18,

And ever since Mac died I've been grinding my

Teeth,

Tried getting high for a while since 19,

But I know eventually that shit'll probably

Kill me,

Waiting for the clock to turn to 4:20,

Been smoking since I woke up and I know I've Had plenty,

But enough is never really enough until you Empty,

I just pray that God lets me fade away gently,

I pray,

That I'll win over my fears,

21 in two months, I know temptation will be Near,

I hope I can see clear when faced with a bottle,

And that I'll turn away and be a better Brother's role model,

I'm sorry,

For not leading a better path,

I know I've done pretty well and pretty

Well ain't half bad

But I love you more than all of my words

Could explain,

Shoulda told you I was gettin' high to deal with The pain

I'm sorry,

To all the women I've led on,

You should know I truly wanted to,

But I was too far gone,

I've always been scared to make a first move,

And maybe that's just cause I never loved

Myself and that's true,

I'm sorry

Mom and Dad I know it's been hard,

To watch your firstborn son fall further in his Facade,

You probably wonder if I even care at all,

I'm here to tell you Imma try and try again

'Till I fall,

'Cause God's watching,

And I've been reading his signs,

Through the good, bad, happy, sad,

I'll fall back in line,

'Cause I know there's always been

Some bigger plans ahead,

I just hope I'll see to recognize them before my

End,

And I'm scared sometimes to look myself in the Eyes,

My mirror only reflects all of my well-kept lies,

I'm terrified,

Of living out a life to never reach a dream,

But I'd be damned if I didn't try and maybe That's just me,

And maybe I'm just a coward,

But somehow I feel like all the times I sat in the Shower,

Have made me a better person who can Empathize for real,

One who fits in other's shoes without stepping On heels,

I'm sorry,

Yeah,

I'm just sorry