Recall Lyrics

There sits a thin line between the urgency and apathy you show me

I'm tearing stitching from the fabric

Trying hard to break the habit

But every time I do succeed you're not around

Don't waste all my time

Wishing I was worth all that you paid for

I'm just a pack without an addict

Foundation fashioned from plastic

I am nothing you could ever want and more

You hear me howl but

It's not a sound that drags you back inside

I fear the chill of stretched out spaces

Endless circles, counting paces

So I think I might be stepping out tonight

It's so defeating and misleading

How you're treating me like you're listening

When I'm pleading and I'm grieving

But the clothes you're wearing say you're leaving

No, I don't want you to go

Don't want to have to know

All the reasons why you hate me so

And no, I can't let her go

Can't shake the feeling, oh

Is this how we're supposed to grow?

I remember it all like yesterday

The sun trapped behind layers of grey

The wind that would wind its way up every corner of my skin

The cries that haunt me and the chill from deep within

I recall the look in her eyes as the distance crept between us,

How the screams got lost in the howling wind

How her steps slowed as her joints gave in to soaring pain,

I recall the pouring rain.

I recall the rage and torment

That the separation made,

How you could take me and force me to stay

When every waking day with you

Is just another that I dream of escape

How the clouds have been grey ever since

And how the sun sat patiently

Waiting to break free

And I hate how you treated me

But you haven't defeated me

I see beckoning rays from beyond the door

I'm watching, hoping they bleed into something more

I feel the breeze shift through the frame

I hear the howl, but I'm not afraid

I feel the chill that made its place in my bones

I feel the distance from home

So here's to every night you left me alone in a crate

This is my escape.

So I'm creeping while you're sleeping

Through the door you left open this evening

I'm not staying where you're laying

So that when I leave, I'll leave you saying

"No, I don't want you to go

Don't want to have to know

All the reasons why you hate me so

And no, I can't let you go

Can't shake the feeling, oh

Is this how we're supposed to grow?"