self control Lyrics

I care a lot, I think it's clear

I take long walks off short-ass piers

I came, I saw, I made a deal

With the devil, surprise he was insincere

But you make it sound so good, you melt away my fears

With pretty little things you whisper in my ear

And I'm not even surprised when it all disappears

Were you ever really here?

How can you explain yourself

When you spend your nights on someone else?

You can't keep me on the shelf,

Like a story that you never tell

And I don't wanna leave you alone

'Cus I can see past you acting like you're strong

But how can I explain myself

When heaven starts to feel like hell?

Over-interpret, I undermine

My ability too see you're not mine

All your pain, it intertwines

You hide in boxes instead of crying

And I wanna make you stay, want you to loose your mind

I wanna close my eyes and let you rob me blind

And I'm hesitant to change, but I'd leave it all tonight

If you could just be mine, but

How can you explain yourself

When you leave again? It's a cry for help, and

I can't change the cards your dealt

So there's no meaning in the words you yell

And I know that I put up a fair fight and

It kills me having to say goodbye

But how can I explain myself

When your acting like your someone else?

I don't blame you, I never could

I don't resent you like I should

And I don't hate you, I don't think I can

But I can't save you or hold your hand

Wish you regretted the things you did and

I wish you said it like it is

And I hope I muster the self control

To see you walk past me and let you go

I don't know, I don't know if I can let you go

How can you explain yourself

When you never caught me when I fell? and,

Even though I hate the shelf,

I don't want it to hold no one else

And it's not how I wanted this to end and

Sometimes I play pretend like

I could've changed myself

And heaven never turned to hell