is it worth it? Lyrics

Sorry I ain't called, ain't been the same in a minute

I ain't had enough conviction to claim a sentence

Every call collect, been a victim and played a menace

My victories independent, my pen is never diminished though

Spent some summers alone, it wasn't nothin set in stone

Every flame that I found metaphorically dead and gone

And most of that be cuz I learned that I had read em wrong

I did a lot but I ain't do enough to get em home

And I ain't sorry, I ain't sorry, I ain't sorry

All the things I had to carry, none of them helped with

Made me stick up for myself when I was stickin through whatever then gon turn around and call ya boy selfish

I ain't ask for help when I was helpless, not when I could help it

In and out the crib like I don't know what mental health is

People say they there but never show what they can help with

Maybe I should change who it is I align myself with

I devalued myself fuckin with you

Every day I was deluded, I kept myself from the truth

Every pavement I was chasin ain't generate an excuse

You was playin with my heart like you rented something to do

I saw it all at the finish, I found myself at the end of what solipsism intended, I ain't fall and I still was spinnin

I'm callin up who gon listen, I'm solid when I do get it

Ain't callin it reminiscin you callin now that I'm winning, and

Now that I get it I'm okay

But what do I do on a slow day?

Do I hit you up when I want to?

Pride look at me like "no way"

Call it whatever you want but

I never been one for the roleplay

I really don't do indirect shit

Treat dates like a Pro Day

But what's it to you if it doesn't improve?

I gotta ensure I got nothing to lose

I'm always gon have some questions bout love

Like how did you know it wasn't for you?