Move past the downfall Lyrics

Writing hasn't come easy for a while now

And I used to write lyrics in no time

Inspiration didn't flow from my meltdown

My mind was in lockdown

And pain wouldn't turn into a rhyme

Four years ago, I lost my dad to cancer

From then I felt something growing deeper

Something wasn't working for me any longer

I wasn't working for me any longer

Grief had me put my life on trial

Examinate the things I had buried under a smile

I had to dig deep, I had to break free

So I packed up my life and brought it to therapy

I went back to as far as I could

To as far as my memories would

I hugged trees, thanked bees, embraced my childhood

I looked for peace in every way that I could

When you face the mirror

There's no running away

You hear the truth that whispers everyday

Underneath it all, when you dig it all, underneath it all

Gotta keep on digging to move past the downfall

Move past the downfall

I had never been alone

Never been on my own

I was a clone

I felt I had to let go of everything I've ever been

I didn't know how to do different back then

And believe me I lost a hell of a girlfriend

She's happy now, she moved on

She got married, they live on a farm

He makes vegan candles (wow) won't cause her any trouble (no)

He was ok with the weed so then it was settled

Yeah

I'm fully being jealous and bitter right now

You took a selfie mate and tagged her oh wow

You both love huskies and tattoos all those signs

Yeah I want peace but also to burn their new house down

When you face the mirror

There's no running away

You hear the truth that whispers everyday

Underneath it all, when you dig it all, underneath it all

Gotta keep on digging to move past the downfall

Move past the downfall

I started working on those lyrics 4 weeks ago

I still don't have a chorus and I'm hating my flow

I guess I've never being so open though

So I'm ok if being slow means letting it go

And letting go is hard, it's saying goodbye

To all the memories, the dreams, feel'em die

To the child I want with her but that we'll never have

It's feeling hope and despair both at the same time

And yes yes, I get tired of watching Oprah

And all those videos telling me how to heal trauma

I listened to every podcast of Jay Shetty

And fuelled my Instagram with people who did a 180 (did a 180)

I'm tired and I think it's taking forever

To do better, to be better, to feel better

But things will come around

I know I won't let myself down

Underneath it all, when you dig it all, underneath it all

Gotta keep on digging to move past the downfall