Close My Eyes (Dedicated to Sean P) Lyrics

I think it's fair to say that I'll never be same

Life full of surprises but it's a evil game

None of us was ready couldn't handle the emotions

Crying on my sons bed my tears could fill up an ocean

I just couldn't hold it how this possibly be right

We just took a picture at the Vibe last night

Why the fuck you in the hospital you fighting for your life

Tubes sticking out your body I just couldn't believe my eyes

My heart wasn't broken it was shattered

Can't gather my thoughts cause nothing really mattered

This shit is so sad

I don't know if I'll make it

I don't wanna accept it God you got to be mistaken

Cause why would you take him that was one of my brothers

His favorite day of the year why couldn't he just recover

Maybe I'm just selfish cause I want him to stay

Now it's hard for me to sleep and its tough for me pray

When I close my eyes I'm a think about the times

We rock so many shows you was always on my side

When I close my eyes I see you and I cry

My soul was is in pieces I don't think I will survive

When I close my eyes I ask God why

I don't understand I wish you survived

I know it takes time

But it's hurting my pride

I miss you every time I close my eyes

I just keep on crying and I wasn't by myself

I refused to leave your side

I saw you take your last breath

That's when I realized the true trauma of death

So many lives you impacted what a legacy you left

Not only a entertainer but also a ref

And I wrestled with myself

I should have texted when you left

It's so crazy cause I never missed a chance for you to sing

And I never got the chance to see you perform in the ring

Now I'm asking myself

What kind of friend are you really

Tomorrow is never promised

Tez you wasn't that busy

You supported everybody in the front row screaming

This one's for the dreamers

Never thought I would be dreaming

That we was together still can't believe you gone

Forever a gentleman I don't know how I'm moving on

Calling Rob Lee and hearing him break down

Forced me to sit down and just cry on the ground

It was like movie scene that day

Again I'm thinking no way

So many people wanna talk but I have nothing to say

Ask me how I feel I told you I was devastated

Took road trips who knew Heaven was your destination

The last time we was together keep playing in my head

You said I love you bro

And now my brother is dead

You made us all cry

And deep down inside

I know you are in Heaven

I just wish you were alive

When I close my eyes I'm a think about the times

We rock so many shows you was always on my side

When I close my eyes I see you and I cry

My soul was is in pieces I don't think I will survive

When I close my eyes I ask God why

I don't understand I wish you survived

I know it takes time

But it's hurting my pride

I miss you every time I close my eyes