Loathing Myself (Album Version) Lyrics

I'm Falling

To this overwhelming feeling I'm not seeking, but I'm fiending like a demon

Installing

A bigger, badder update circulating through my circuits while I'm broken and hopeless with no emotion

Still Stalling

Cause I'm frozen, unspoken, leaps sealed, indulging for the upcoming misfortune I'm provoking

Appalling

But wanting for more like addiction, I snort the pain that it's sore when feeling worse, I'm torn with great remorse

Don't worry

Fine and dandy, quite happy as a child with candy

Nothing fancy, a man with issues that none can see

Cause no one sees me, non-existent and transparent like a window

Overlooked, so I'm through as I rest my head on my pillow

With a disease while asleep, think of death on the bed

I'm sick and tired of this, just waiting for my end

Just quick and fire at me, I'm losing more old friends

No more caring I get, I'll be forgotten and dead

Yeah

Enough with the fake face, I know I'm helpless

I've passed through this phase, got no more places

One, two, three, four, A to G notes

Happy themed songs, cloaking real stuff

Enough with the fake folks, listen to the faithless

Stop writing them fables, we express it with real stress

Pain's insane like jumping towards a speeding train

Wrecked when I think, and the ache never goes away

They keep saying to be brave, but I'm living to be more afraid

Cause when I get up in this stage, I collapse and fall flat on my face

They're preaching to show confidence, but what for when I get no compliments

If understanding can lead to some respect, then I guess we're ignorant for being the rejects

It really won't matter, no need to be flattered

Still fluent like water, even if I'm bothered

Won't be waiting for help, I'll be left in a shelf

So keep living yourself, I'll be loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

There's no escaping, my soul is fading

Cause I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

There's no one to save me, so I handle my own beat

I'm loathing myself

Let's take it way back, back when I didn't give a damn

Back when days weren't black and I had my own jam

Welcome to this flashback, see this kid with his pad

Drawing doodles of the future, holding hands with his pals

Then the years pass by, like a big city's tram

Looking at their posts in Instagram

Who are filled with joy with their friends and fam

While I turned to the sacrificial lamb

So I wake up trying to understand

All the wrong I've done, and I can't withstand

What I've become, so I can't attend

Social events, and for that, I banned

Myself to ever be attached

Cause I can't find something that I cannot latch

Like a lonely date, I have no match

And no wound won't heal, there won't be no patch

Go ahead and smile, let your joys be felt

Just don't be like me, I'm just loathing myself

Please do not mind me, I'm just loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

There's no escaping, my soul is fading

Cause I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

There's no one to save me, so I handle my own beat

I'm loathing myself

I am living this way, but there ain't no way

That I lost my shot stuck in a frame

With a repetitive thought, wondering every day

If it would be the same if I had more fame

So here I go, once more, at a slower pace

Telling you to hear what I have to say

Place to place, you might find many things to face

But take a second before wearing your Batman cape

Many things won't be the same, there will be some change

Don't take them for granted, might not be here to stay

Reflect on those around you and what your life has made

Then the realization decides if you'll fall in hate

Again and again, I'll be repeating the phrase

I don't care if you're sick of hearing it on replay

Whether you feel it or fear it, this is me to tell

Cause when I'm filled with rage, I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

There's no escaping, my soul is fading

Cause I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

I'm loathing myself

There's no one to save me, so I handle my own beat

I'm loathing myself