Post-Nut Clarity Lyrics

I may just let it get worse

Mocking bitter wounds, in a hollow room

A breathing meme distracting from reality

How many "Cs" does that word need?

...with two "Cs"

I should've asked for a name before I agreed

I just can't unsee the words that left your body

An abstract technicality, emotional fatality

My boredom warped your soul

Mistaking circumstance for love

A marriage of convenience

Losing sleep over sleep not lost

It's always better for me when a loved one pays my cost

Right here, with you, we discover what I am

After the nut, I'm sitting in a rut

Forced to remember people I could've sworn that I forgot

Where am I?

And who are you?

And what in the world did I just do?

Maybe I should find another way to cope

Maybe I should lie and say that this lump in my throat

That it isn't because of the groping and prodding

Elated that fingers are hugging your larynx

Recreational decay with victims that beg me to stay

I know that you aren't the one who will undo my trauma

Meaningless and hollow

People shouldn't be borrowed

But it helps me forget

My selfish decisions, they help repel my past

Why is it, when I lie, an angel dies?

No more connections for me

No more people for me

I just can't unhear you

Soundwaves into action

My vocal cords defeat me again

Upside-down grins scream how I've been