THIS IS WHAT DEPRESSION FEELS LIKE Lyrics

Well, now, really

When we go back then to falling in love

And say, "It's crazy," falling

You see, we don't say "rising into love"

There is in it the idea of the fall

And uh

It is, goes back as a matter of fact to extremely fundamental things

That, there is always a curious, tie at some point

Between the fall, and the creation

Taking this ghastly risk

Uh, is the condition of there being life

This my suicide note

I'm finna cut my wrist and cut my throat to find hope

I wanna take some drugs but I can't really find 'em

I'm really feelin' this pain

It isn't feelin' the same

Yeah I know that this shit corny but I'm speakin' the truth

I be feeling all depressed even when you're in the room

I'ma probably need a therapist to be 'way from you

I can't wait til' I'm gone

And maybe then you'll read my mind ho'

Yeah, you know what you do to me

I'm so tired of fake love and the scrutiny

I just wanna feel some love, the thing you pulled from me

I don't wanna feel low, I just wanna feel up

The things that you say really cut me deep

I got my head going over my feet

I know that you don't really know what I mean

But there's been a lotta nights where I'm feelin' suicidal

Nobody knows my pain

I think I wanna die tonight

I can't speak this out loud

So I'ma put it in this song

And I call, on God's phone

But he don't answer at all

Did I fuck, it all up?

I don't know, it's his call

This my suicide note

I tried to take some pills and overdose on my throne

I talked to God he told me this son isn't right though

He told me I gotta push on and read the Bible

I said yes my father I'm gon' live my life now

I know my past and my thoughts it puts me right down

I promise for my pops I'm gonna get this right for you

I'll get this right for you

I'll get this right for you

This my suicide note

I'm feeling better ever since I read the bible

Uh, yeah I'm doing better

Uh, I'm doing better

Oh, God, yeah I'm doing better

That's quite mad because you see, it's letting things get out of control

All sensible people keep things in control

Watch it, watch it, watch it

Security? Vigilance? Watch it. Police? Watch it

Guards? Watch it. Who's going to watch the guards?