Autumn Of Sanity Lyrics

I. Motion

I feel clouds rising up

Bringing darkness in my head

Bringing motion in my mind

I haven't felt like this yet

Season is changing in my head, losing control

Losing my grip on the real world, descending

Inside, I'm falling down into this abyss of my

Worries and all my horrors

Trying to clear this chaos inside

Stirring up my mind

Like a dark cloud that follows me 'round

Like my feet lost the ground

II. Back In The Habitable Zone

Many days, I was laying, face to ground, I get up

Walk outside, breathe the air and finally, I feel

Loneliness and emptiness

Start to disappear

But still I cannot grasp

This whole new reality

It all feels more like fantasy to me

III. Moonlit Despair

Sitting on a dark bench

Stars and moon are shining

Staring into black clouds

Looking for a silver lining

After walking endless ways

The problem finally shows it's face

As I stare into her cold eyes

Looking shyly for a trace

To be honest, I don't know what I'm looking for

A cure to help me

Relief me from the war

The conflict inside of me

Or is it the sense of being, the reason why we're here

The meaning of living

Which I inquire?

Gazing at what surrounds me

A lake in the dark

Water ripples softly

Under a bridge crossing in a moonlit arch

And still she sits beside me

As I try to tame her

Her slowly taking control, I see

Her name is despair

IV. The Greyscale Halls

Walking through these hallways, black and white

Try to figure out what's wrong with me

I'm determined to win this inner fight

Demons inside, please leave me be

Losing reality out of sight

Seeing things, no one was meant to see

Whisper things into my dazzled mind

Demons inside, please just leave me be

Here I am to fill this black hole

Sucks in all

A remedy for my troubled soul

Can anyone hear my call?

In the name of all my pain

Doctors sitting right here next to me

Questioning the things I always see

Examining the things in my brain

Telling me that I am insane

Still I don't have a cure for my head

Feeling alone with delusions I'm fed

Loneliness and emptiness, back I fall

As my cry echoes through the greyscale halls

Here I am to fill this black hole

Sucks in all

A remedy for my troubled soul

Can anyone hear my call?

In the name of all my pain

Stumble on with therapists

Walking by my side

Here I am to calm my restless mind

Lack of sleep took all my peace

Voices in my head, they leave me blind

Look to calm my mental disease

Doctors say, they were the ones to see

In to depths inside of me

Take this pill because it might just be

What could help your life to proceed

Here I am to fill this black hole

Sucks in all

A remedy for my troubled soul

Can anyone hear my call?

In the name of all my pain

V. The Whiteout

VI. The Blackout

Leaving by dark, I fade into the night

Walking narrow streets with lanterns' dim light

Seeking what I most desire

What my inner fire

Yearns to replace the meds

They no longer have effect

On me

Let the trip begin

Sitting

In the corner of the street

Forgetting who I am

Seeing creatures and monsters in my head,

Merely hallucinations haunting me, robbing my sleep

As I kept hiding, in my peripheral visions,

I saw the stars falling from the blackened sky

Tossing the fields and trees,

Village and streets

Into permanent blackness

As I proceed into woods, I leave the village

I think back, when life was going great

(But all that doesn't matter anymore)

Inner deception preparing mental pillage

Paranoia sweeps away my traits

I walked away

Mind gone astray

Try to find my way

After loosing

Track of the time

That passed away

I find myself

Back in my home

Mind still astray

Same four old walls

Same hallucinations

Come my way

Here I am

VII. Winter

I have woken up, see myself in the mirror again

With all my flaws and imperfections

What has become of me?

Now I see in which delusions

I lost myself, couldn't catch a glimpse of reality

Addiction, hallucinations and paranoia

Held me tight, blinded me

But soon it will all be over

I will wake up from this nightmare

I close my eyes for the final time

Waiting for the voices to stop

But that doesn't matter anymore