Conscious Choices Lyrics

I'm stuck between two places in my mind

I don't know where to go what to decide

I've never been here before never I'm all my life

So imma stay here get stuck in my subconscious

How did I get here I don't know

Finding myself in a story I wrote

Already know how this one ends

All I can do right now is hope

Hope that i'll be alright

I have to hope you ain't heard these lies

Hope you don't put the blame on I

It's me and my subconscious mind

I plead the fifth

I told some lies I see her eyes

Wants me to die I see the light

Don't know where I will be tonight

I'm way too gone in the clouds I forever feel numb

Played all my songs I'm so proud now I forever feel dumb

Put the blame on my subconscious but I know everything that I done

The devil convinced me that everything I'm doing right here is for fun

Tell me all your deepest darkest fears coz

Tonight I might just scare ya

Tonight I might just scare ya

I'm admitting these sins

I'm committing these wrong doings I can never just win

Fight my battles and go through 'em that's how I become king

I can never descend

I'm up in heaven tryna find my mind

Someone tell Angels that I have arrived

And please let it stop

They can't put me in a box

I just wanna really talk to god

Tell me what I'm doing so wrong and I know it

Save me please heroic

And I'm in my own boat I'm rowing

I'm an ocean of regret in droning

I mean drowning

Will I make it out man I doubt it

Oo I really shouldn't think about it

Inside still scream and shout it

Imma take these dreams I've salvaged

And take it

And face it

All the trauma in my mind erase it

It's my own dream still end up naked

This is how I feel can't take it

And I know

Everything that happened is all my fault

And I know

These are no longer subconscious thoughts

Tell me all your deepest darkest fears coz

Tonight I might just scare ya

Tonight I might just scare ya

I'm admitting these sins

I'm committing these wrong doings I can never just win

Fight my battles and go through 'em that's how I become king

I can never descend

I'm up in heaven tryna find my mind

Someone tell Angels that I have arrived

Using all my conscious choices

To tell you I'm doing wrong

Should have never listened to the voices

That told me what to do for so long

I tried to stay on my two feet

But I can't do what I thought I could

As I speak to you there's only one thing

Please god forgive my