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A lot of shit on my mind but I will never tell 'em

None of my homies by my side on my own I been chilling

I don't wanna take no drugs they don't help with the healing

And I keep my circle small tell 'em boys I don't feel 'em

Told my mom that I been strong

I been chilling on my own yeah

I ain't picking up my phone

Cuz I much rather be alone

At times I wonder if I cry will I feel the same

At times I wonder if I die will they know my name

I'm just wondering right now if there'll be a change

Too much pain inside my heart I'm tryna sing it away

And I ain't tryna complain

But shit ain't been the same

Tryna figure out myself and who I became

Damn I already went crazy tryna dull my pain

In a stu' I'm feeling different yeah

First time it really got me singing

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Tryna catch my breath why my head is spinning

Too many humps to get around and that's why I'm tripping

I can't trip can't fall I just gotta keep walking

Cuz I know they want me to fall

It's been way too long I can tell that they're watching

And I gotta make it known that it ain't no stopping

I ain't gon lie my passion was hard to find

I was just down there in the basement tryna figure shit out

I could tell you what it was but you weren't around

When I needed you out there you were nowhere to be found

14 years old

Started chasing dreams on my own

Swear I used to pray for the shit that I'm on

Had to grow up fast and then I turned to a storm

At times I wonder if I cry will I feel the same

At times I wonder if I die will they know my name

I'm just wondering right now if there'll be a change

Too much pain inside my heart I'm tryna sing it away

And I ain't tryna complain

But shit ain't been the same

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I done made something from nothing

I done came a long way gotta finish what I started

Momma always told me boy don't worry you got it

Now I got my shit ready and I'm trying to pop it

And I don't trip about the money cuz I know that I got it

Still ain't made it out the hood but they know that I'm trying

Busted my ass to get it all and I deserve it so fuck it

And I took my shit too far how you gon' tell me to stop it?

Tired of people saying they got my back

Truth be told you just wanna knock me off track

Still ain't got no one behind me put my friends in the past

That's why I look over my shoulder I don't wanna get stabbed

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And I don't care about no clothes

I can't get dirty cuz I'm dripping head to toe

If you wanna talk about it I been had it all

Remember being broke I been there before

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