afterthought Lyrics

Called me back last night again

My, your lies were elegant

Soft as silk and sweet as sin 

I smiled back and let you win

The retrograde put me through hell 

But you don't ask so I don't tell

I nod along and listen well

You carry on about yourself

But you shine bright, dear 

You deserve it

Your time's priceless 

I'm not worth it

So I try harder to be perfect

Your eye's a prize, I fight to earn it

But we are what we are

And it's not what it's not

Just a crack in the ice

Just a roll of your eyes

I'm an afterthought 

That you have a lot

I learned to dance when I was young 

Pretended I was having fun

Not fitting in with anyone

Till I was strong enough to run 

I grew my roses just for you

I don't know why they came up blue 

I'd prick my wrists and fingers too

To paint them in a warmer hue 

But you're a big star

Supernova 

Perfect body, framed diploma 

And I taste strange like diet cola

A car crash you can't look away from

But we are what we are

And it's not what it's not

Just a crack in the ice

Just a roll of your eyes

I'm an afterthought 

That you have a lot

And I could do it if I wanted 

I could monetize the content 

Head out west and sell a sonnet 

Live in solitude in softness 

It's a thing I dream of trying 

When I'm tired of keeping quiet 

Or or I'm cheating on my diet 

And it's getting hard to hide it 

Or maybe that's just the plot

Of a movie I forgot 

Just an afterthought