Alive Lyrics

(So why?

I've never been alive

I know I'm gonna lie

But it's my life

It's possible I'll die

But I no longer have time

She's sharpening a knife)

As blood leaks from my arteries

I got continuous questions from a place inside of me

Where the sorrow isn't fixed, but it's drowned with Hennessy

Where the lies start brewing from a potion of deceit

So just one more obstacle and I might choose to leave

So just one more mishap and I'll lose the will to breathe

So one more problem, I'll forget my honesty

Then she returned, mission complete

So why?

If everybody dies, why do I have to live like I've never been alive?

It's such a shame but I know I'm gonna lie

And I'll blame it on her but it's my life

Tonight, it's possible I'll die

And I know it isn't right but I no longer have time

She's aware that she's sharpening a knife

That'll kill me but at least, I'll feel alive

Why does everybody hope I'm dead?

Was it something I said? Was it something in my head?

Why does it seem like you're the only one who cares?

Even though I'm misled, even though it's code red

As I walk along this tightrope

I lose my hope, I lose control

Yeah, she's got me on a tightrope

She took my soul, she took control, yeah

So why?

If everybody dies, why do I have to live like I've never been alive?

It's such a shame but I know I'm gonna lie

And I'll blame it on her but it's my life

Tonight, it's possible I'll die

And I know it isn't right but I no longer have time

She's aware that she's sharpening a knife

That'll kill me but at least, I'll feel alive

It's okay, I hope

I might die, I know

This monster controls

My actions, please don't go

There's no way, back home

I'm sorry, I'm alone

I hurt myself, it shows

I'm my biggest enemy, I know

(Searched for reasons to live, then I found one

I don't know why it's not enough)

So why?

If everybody dies, why do I have to live like I've never been alive?

It's such a shame but I know I'm gonna lie

And I'll blame it on her but it's my life

Tonight, it's possible I'll die

And I know it isn't right but I no longer have time

She's aware that she's sharpening a knife

That'll kill me but at least, I'll feel alive