Almost a Monster ft. Rhondofromjersey Lyrics

I was 18 when I fell in love for the first time

I was 21 feelin so convinced I'd make her mine

Turnt 22 and I realized I was fuckin blind

I been holdin on to a empty hand

I was sharing thoughts with a closed mind

I swear she could've turned me to a monster

Make the rest pay for the debt she fuckin cost us

Shoulda known it wasn't love she's an imposter

I don't believe in bad blood but I do believe karma

She broke me down

She hurt me bad

I won't give up

No not like that

I seen a glimpse of her best

I guess it ain't up to me

To bring it out yet

Still grateful that we met

Cuz I know who I don't wanna be

A man filled with insecurities from lies discovered by me

I don't wanna be actin naive

Givin out chance after chance

Bad situations end up bein lessons that's just young nigga stance

I don't wanna be a victim

I wasn't perfect I admit it

But so many times that we done talked about it

We done fought about it

I had to get up out it girl cuz you was wrong about it (yeah)

I know know know I'll find love again

I won't won't won't be full of resent

I had to heal with it

Not go out and be in the field with it

Had to gain a new skill with it

Had to clear out the fake to get real with it

You were with me cuz I was meal ticket

It was hard for me to see the real difference

Baby

Had to go and hit a 180

Shoulda known that you would just do too much

Cuz you wasn't used to love

Cuz you wasn't used to trust

You we're used to fuckin up (up)