Behind You Lyrics

Sitting in my bedroom wondering if I can let go of this love

'Cause my heart's in my head

And I'm looking back on all the things I've done

The people I loved, the people I lost

'Cause I forgot how to hold them closer than my satisfaction

My intuition never asked me why and if what I was doing was wrong

In the not-so-distant past, the lives I lived, the laughs we had

How did you stick with me?

Living my double life

Breaking myself left and right

Spinning in a whirlwind of my own self destruction

But this isn't your mess, it's mine

And I'm sorry for all of the times I was hard to love

Hard to call, easy to write off

When it seemed like I was just another one of your stepping stones

While you were walking yourself home

Just close that door behind you

Behind you

Walking 'round my neighborhood wishing I hadn't overstayed my welcome

'Cause my bed feels so empty

I live with all these have-said thoughts, but I can't seem to fix the lies

'Cause lately I seem to be living life on autopilot

Wrong and right, they seem more and more alike

Look in my eyes and you can tell it's not for lack of trying

I'm just terrified of looking back on the best years of mine

And seeing what you had to see

Trying to find my balance

But the scales lean from left to right

Notions of emotions leading to my inability

To let your love in to my mind

And I'm sorry for all of the times I was hard to love

Hard to call, easy to write off

When it seemed like I was just another one of your stepping stones

While you were walking yourself home

Just close that door

Now I know that my life has been yours to hold for some time now

And I've been driving coast to coast trying to figure it out

My heart's in your hands, 'cause when I held it, it didn't flow

And I don't blame you if you leave, you just gotta let me know

If your hands need to be apart from mine

Maybe they'll touch again in time

But for now, I'm just holding a pen and my clouded mind

'Cause this isn't your mess, it's mine

And I'm sorry for all of the times I was hard to love

Hard to call, easy to write off

I guess that I was another one of your stepping stones

While you were walking yourself home

Just close that door behind you

Behind you