All a blur (My biggest fear) Lyrics

Someone asked me the other night what my biggest fear is, and I've never really had a good answer for it, but my answer was that all this is for nothing

Kind of the idea that like, one day life ends and it just all goes black

And I guess that question like, sent me, you know, obviously deep into a spiral of thought

And it makes me think about my life and how surreal it feels at times

I go back to this day when I was like 13 or 14

I had an audition for a TV show that ultimately shaped my life and before my audition, I went to this kid's house and I out of, I guess, a desire to be accepted

I would succumb to peer pressure, and I got high with these kids right before my audition and I kind of wonder, like, if something bad happened that day, or you know, maybe I'm still high, maybe I'm in some coma

And this is just like me playing out my ideal life

And yeah, that concept has stuck with me for a lot of years

I mean, it feels like reality, it feels tangible

But I definitely wonder sometimes