Awkward Smile Lyrics

The pressure weighing heavy, hard on my soul

I feel nickel plated but my heart made of gold

Medusa love confusing us, turned me to stone

When you look in my eyes you don't know me no more

Or ever, forever I'm giving too much

Trying to make it better for whoever I claim to love

But I'm exhausted from always trying too much

So when they calling, I'm stalling before I pick up

Nice to see ya, it's been awhile

Hard to speak of the reasons I won't come around

You should see us, turned to strangers

You don't know us now

I can see it in ya face when you look at me with yo awkward smile

Really I'm running from talking

Cause I don't wanna use caution

When I be telling you everything that you have cost me

Feeling like Jesus when speaking on people that cross me

Now the old me doesn't exist he's dead in coffin

Carrying more than I bargained

Hero take all in, when I take all in

Feeling defeated my knees is the reason I'm walking

Speak on the evils then people don't wanna be bothered

When it's they garbage

I'm left to clean up the mess that they brought in

Like a janitor standing stranded

I'm sick of the chances

That I been giving to people that don't even notice the damage

I'm giving my heart to the people that's taking advantage

Talking bout love but I'm not talking about the romances

This for my friends, my family tree

Planted tragedies, wish I could take it all back

Back to the day they came after me

Mama is dead with no grave, I should've been casualty

Instead I had to leave, taking us back to a family

Damaged bout half of me

Nice to see ya, it's been awhile

Hard to speak of the reasons I won't come around

You should see us, turned to strangers

You don't know us now

I can see it in ya face when you look at me with yo awkward smile