introverted sensing (voice memo - piano) Lyrics

Sometimes I imagine bumping into you in places

Pretend I don't see you, so I can head start, like the races

Banter appropriately curt yet personal enough

I'd end it oh so nonchalant, so you know that I'm tough

"So I'll get back to this and that.. and I'll just let you go"

I truly cannot help it, it just happens now and then

And when it does it really feels like you're here for a second

Its funny what the mind will do when on its own it's left

Perhaps my brain just copes with missing you like that

I read a list of symptoms and I think I check each one

Thought I'd call & let you know

but it felt stupid even more

Said I'd spend forever with you, voice without a doubt

Now I need excuses..to consider reaching out

Cursed you without blinking now I feel rude to wish you well

It's funny what the mind will think in "I was never shown & tell"

"To break my mother's cycle, is a never-ending game, Last night I

said to her,

that I never

want babies

Well, anyway… I'll get back to this and that and I'll just let you go"

The memories, they still occur with and without consent

I can't help it, it just happens now and then

In one of them I'm on your lap not knowing how I got there

As light is changing, I'm debating shadings of your hair

In one the kitchen doorway frames you, I melt at the sight

The smell of pasta makes itself at home just right

I don't care how I used to say you'd say things wrong

The guy I wish I dated only came when we were done

In one of them I'm crying cuz you say you're gonna move

By the way, its not for the reason it was when I told you

In another it's the day everything changed for the worse

and I know you know when that was

In one of them, you stick your nose, your lashes out the window

You'd visit on the weekends, truck was big a la a frat bro

I say I miss you before you even drive

I live so far in the past, it happens right before my eyes

I live so far in the past, it happens right before my eyes

Sometimes I pull my skin & talk aloud when I'm alone

I say I miss you.. no ones in the room

The last thing that you said to me was, strategically polite

I live so far in the past it happens right before my eyes

So I'll get back to this and that cuz I cant let you go