Cessation ft. Trxple Lyrics

I cant stand myself

My reflection

I dont slit my wrist for attention

I never thought id shoot all this heroin

Fuck I fly from injecting

Cash a quick check show some ass for attention

All this cash that im spending

Goes straight from my pocket to the pills im ingesting

I struggle with my image cus im anxious

I woke up with some blood on my sheets

Thought I'd finally be free

My father he weeps

My brother he sleeps

I said "father do you recognise me"

He looked right through me

Stare over horizon the ocean the sea

A butterfly freed from coccoon make believe

If only youd listen to me

I'd tell you my problems but they don't believe

They see me beneath their feet

Not a treasure to keep

I shine like the eyes of a newborn star

But im never getting far

At least

I know my worth as a human being

But I never lock down that worth

Cus you see

My mother could be

Dissapointed in me

I drink hennessy

Get a chance to breathe

I dont want your pity I just wanna be free

Collecting my mind like a puzzle by piece

I break my thoughts down like a bed by the sea

I feel for the kids that feel things just like me

I pray that my mind could be studied so please

Just let me be me

I feel sick and alone

Stop calling my phone

My momma my father they wanna dispose

Of my body my powder

My pills give me power

Im overdosing fall asleep in the shower

I wake up ontop of a hospital stretcher

My hospital bed

Feel my brain in effect

Im better off dead

Feel my emotions I put the pad to the pen

Hope you never really loved me

Im sorry

I did this again

Leave a message for family lovers and friends

Discharged from the hospital at 5 past 10

But my stomach feeling empty so I shoot up instead

Brain rots till the end

I walk earth with the endless sense of dread

Im glad im far from my friends

Cus I never know if ill see them again

I got everything sleeping airmattress no bed

Or a couple nights ill switch to the couch instead

Overdose its better for free willed