this is not really happening Lyrics

Should've seen it coming

Should've known that something's wrong

But now I'm sitting as I watch you

Pull the pin out of a bomb and toss it to me

Please don't do this to me

Picking at the seams and

Gripping tightly to the couch

Your grandma gave when we moved in

I couldn't wait to throw it out

Now it'll always

Be where my world caved in

Oh, help me

This is not really happening

It's just too overwhelming

Tell me

It's not what it seems

This is all just a dream

Oh, God is

This what you had in mind

It's not supposed to be like this

I'm mad and I'm sad

Afraid and ashamed

I don't know what to say

I'm not ok

Is that ok with you?

Maybe I misheard

Please let me think

Just give me time

My calculations and projections

And my plans are always right

What are you saying

Can you explain it again

Everything is fine

It will be fine

I swear I'm fine

And if I keep repeating lines

Then maybe by the hundredth time

That I say it

I can make it true

Oh, help me

This is not really happening

It's just too overwhelming

Tell me

It's not what it seems

This is all just a dream

Oh, God is

This what you had in mind

It's not supposed to be like this

I'm mad and I'm sad

Afraid and ashamed

I don't know what to say

I'm not ok

Is that ok?

Emotions play chaotic games

And claim my mental real estate

I can't

It's too hard

And I'm falling apart

Does that mean I don't have enough faith

I've tried and tried

So God why can't I pray this all away

Oh, help me

This is not really happening

It's just too overwhelming

Tell me

It's not what it seems

This is all just a dream

Oh, God is

This what you had in mind

It's not supposed to be like this

I'm mad and I'm sad

Afraid and ashamed

I don't know what to say

I'm not ok

Is that ok with you?