Forever, Right Now Lyrics

I just wanna talk my shit but I don't feel like I live up to it

These insecurities come in waves gotta swim up to it

Drowning in my fears I don't think this love will do it

This house is not a home it's burning down I'm all alone in it

My old girl hit my phone on some shit that is overdue

It isn't fucking childish to say that I've been over you, I'm far removed

Tryna get this car to move

Become one with the universe under this starry roof

People acting different I just learn to sift around them

Do my best to lift them up but they wanna keep me grounded

So when I switch it up they wanna act so astounded

Used to say they love me and I never used to doubt it

But they been keeping score and my points just never counted

They been warming benches you would think they were bounded

They'll come around just to measure up what you amounted

Try and size you down, make a mole hill out of a mountain

Still they drink out of your fountain

Cuz when the liquid flows know you'll be surrounded

Wait for you to crash and burn

Nothing ever lasts it's just your turn

Take your turn

I can't be here forever

This moment is enough for me

I wish I could storm the weather

This rain make it tough for me

It's putting out the fire tho, lately I've been burning out

Don't know how to love figured I should learn it now

Don't got energy for anyone but they think I get around

I wanna settle down

24 years don't really got shit to show for it

Dealing with a lot you think that I would grow from it

Sorting out my thoughts can be such a fruitless endeavor

Got me lost, distraught, gotta pull myself together

If I lose this fight don't know how I will get up again

Fighting inner demons just tryna make amends with them

Don't gotta be friends again, I just need the sun to set and end

This endless night and bring me light, searching for deliverance

Wanna talk with Heavens denizens, don't wanna fence em in

Wait for me to crash so they can fix the damages

Watch me bleed out while tucking all their bandages

Never even question circumstances that they're standing in

My time to go will be soon enough I just hope I get to say when

They hold no accountability, doing business in a play pen

Making up the rules just to change them by days end

Its the same shit

Arguing semantics need it pedantic

Chilling on writers block getting kinda frantic

Mortality accepted well that should be a granted

But when I tell them that they think that I'm manic

I can't be here forever

This moment is enough for me

I wish I could storm the weather

This rain make it tough for me

I can't be here forever

I just need right now, right now