Find Myself Lyrics

Failure

Well I guess the journey begins Leave it all Behind I'm scared Stomach curdles within

You're nervous again get your Surgery then

A handful of pills and a bottle of Gin

I turn to the end as I wallow Within

I'm nothin a follower then

ITS FINE its fine to your enemies And family And friends

Then it is to me too then that's All that it is

I slowly descend only to bend

Lonely with the death of my soul And that's it

And I'm cold and I'm bitter and I'm closing And I don't know if ill Continue down the Road to the End

Ascension

Well I guess the journey begins

Leave it all behind

I'm scared stomach curdles within

You're nervous again

You can turn to the end

Its unnerving but then

Surely within

I learn to ascend learned early to end

Anyone opposing or turning against

Your turn to rescind

Now you're on the fence

Served with a sense of assured self defense I've emerged and alert to the depths

That's unheard of the best that can possibly Ever exist

Ever forever irreverent to them

The so called leaders or heads of the nest

I love myself and I'm dead to the rest

Too much infraction inflicted to just trust

Lost much learned more long time quit once

But its never over

Mistakes are made to better those

And if you know then you know

And if you don't then skip along

Once I find myself I'm realizing all my dreams

And time itself is falling at my knees

Your times run out

I'm living out my fantasies

The more you try and stop me

The worse off your gonna be

What's happenin I lost it again

All these thoughts in my head

Thought that I had overcome this

Man I'm not gonna bend again

Pause and a breath

Compose my self that's it

Now its on to impossible tasks

Test is Passed

With a fucking hundred and ten Percent

Authenticity not an ounce of pretend in me Fuck what you said fuck what you think

Fuck who you are man

I give a fuck bout a drug

Fuck bout a drink

Overdose on adrenalin

From the thoughts that I'm channelin'

It mirrors a shot of amphetamine

Your tyranny stops its the end to it

My fear it is lost and my strength begins

I merely found out who I truly am

That's why I have overcame such

So much pain much trust

Thrown away from

All the hate pushed on me no one came ta Help me the weak ones no one saves us

So we must break up with doubt

Face up wake up and shout

You ain't taking us down

Were risin up we're making it now

You force our motherfuckin hand and we're Breaking you down

I'm talking a motherfuckin soul removal

I mean all of you and all your pupils

Not a molecule left

Abolish your cells

I don't follow you I follow myself

I'm delving impossible depths

Another pause and a breath

Move onward only forward again

I overcome all

My success it is causing you death

That's cause and effect

I'm God at his best

Possible breadth

Remorse no compute not in cards as I said

I are as I am

That's it that's all that it is

All the problems I had

All the pain it was all for the best

Once I find myself I'm realizing all my dreams

And time itself is falling at my knees

Your times run out

I'm living out my fantasies

The more you try and stop me

The worse off your gonna be

Times frozen my mind's closin in again

I don't know if I'm going to make it

This time I quit

Thinking like that I start thinking like this There's not a molecule of quit in my system Mindset set in stone I sit

Alone with my pen

And and scriptures follow flow out the ink

Adrenaline rush and then

Corroded arteries thick en

Blood flow head rush and instantly

Cause oblivion

I'm not going to rescind

My existence and consciousness

Is the cause of your death

Stomped on and set on fire

Take a cocksuckin breath

Cocksucker Breathe in breathe out

Like peoples mean voices would accost me as thoughts in my head

Oh you had mental problems I bet

Probably lost your job or some shit

I embody Wes Watson psychological shit

I'm so militant in my mindset

That literally not a single breathes out of line

My object and my purpose is finding myself Rising to heights that are higher than possible

Overlord of life in itself

The light shines brightest right down

On my life myself I have found

Once I find myself I'm realizing all my dreams

And time itself is falling at my knees

Your times run out

I'm living out my fantasies

The more you try and stop me

The worse off your gonna be

Now that I've found myself Its only positivity positively the power of god within me

With a single thought disseminate

Dissolve my enemies

Another problem solved

Resolve my inner demons

My resolve possesses me

Its my all my everything

Not thought demeaning myself

Never puzzled calm collected patient

I see through life's problems

They're solved and instantly

Always forward energy

Moving onward synergy

And its constant strategy (what)

The thoughts I'm battling

Its lots of scrambling lots of scatterin

trying to decipher

Every single concept every feelin

Need to take the proper action

Always contemplating everything

In my head it's always scrabble

I'm always scrapping against

The wrong feelings

And the thought the opposite happens

I learn from all situations

I draw from anything

When you battle me it's never draw

You'll never be winning

I've been crazier for

Longer than I've been Sane

That's about 20 years to the 15

Its a mixture of drugs and not handling

Life and those around me

Properly in the Right way

Should've listened to myself

When the time Came

But I do now so my time came

What a bright ray of sunshine shade

Shine down on my life what a bright day

I don't like praying I am quite sane

I like working my ass off to fight pain

When you judge me it's irrelevant

You couldn't see my truth through the Universes largest telescope

Don't even waste your time trying to adjust The aperture

That's mature as I'd ever fuckin have to put My thoughts and what

I think of fuckin Everyone

Well I guess we have views that are differin

You're on that side I'm on this side

So if you shoot a school up in Switzerland

And I protest it

That means I'll get cancelled and I'll get fuckin Ruined just for questionin

That's a little bit rude fuckin isn't it

That's very controversial just a little bit

Why should someone's

skin shade mean Slavery

What the fucks fuckin wrong with humanity

We hurt people over things

that they can't Change

But we must respect and only must respect An obese tubby manatee

If we don't that's another fuckin canceling

Oh another different view I hope you die of Cancer then

Where we're going in this world's

Fuckin Bothersome

All you hear man is what the fuckin topics are

And that there problems not

The deeper meaning

And the solution

To to be motherfuckin solving 'em

What the fuck in the fucks

fuckin wrong with Us

That's meaning you

I don't give a fuck if you think that means I'm Being mean to you

I AM demeaning you

I am the meaning to Life

People like me contain so much

Good and Evil Through 'em

Doesn't matter which way existence sway

I can switch lanes in a pinch if the shit change What I'm saying is I can be anything

I'd rather help but never at my expense again I'll help and give back if I simply can

But never again will I sacrifice my happiness Or my well-being mentally or physically

I'm just going to be the best I possibly can be It's time for my exiting

This my Exodus

It's the end of this