what it used to be Lyrics

I envy my past self, who didn't know how good she had it

Cause I can feel all the difference, in the way you're looking at me

Tell myself at least you're still here, when I don't even know if you want to be

Back then you used to hold my hand, but now you don't even notice

Told me that you'd care until the end, but now some promises are broken

And I'm sitting here not knowing how to fix them alone

But they were never my promises to keep

And I'm over here still wishing it was me

That you cared about, that you cared about

At the beginning I wasn't so attached, as time went on I wanted it to last

But I've become torn apart, always worried we'll be back at the start

Back then you used to hold my hand, but now you don't even notice

Told me that you'd care until the end, but now some promises are broken

And I'm sitting here not knowing how to fix them alone

But they were never my promises to keep

And I'm over here still wishing it was me

That you cared about, that you cared about

But the truth is, she never had it good

And now I'm romanticizing what it used to be

Still wishing that was me

But the truth is, she never had it good

And now I'm romanticizing what it used to be

Still wishing that was me

But the truth is, she never had it good

And now I'm romanticizing what it used to be

Still wishing that was me

At the end

I'm at the end