cease to exist Lyrics

I know that we'll probably never talk again

You're still on my friends list, if you ever feel like checking in

I'm sorry for freaking out, you know that I'm not like that

It felt like an attack, it was my first instinct to fight back

I don't wanna know what's in your head when you lay down, yuh

I don't even wanna know what you think about

I'll probably stay inside tonight and rip my heart out

Play a song on the strings to hear how it sounds

You didn't ask, but this is how my life is doing now

Everything around me makes me think of Minnesota now

I didn't think the last time I stepped outta your house

Would really be the last one

Fuck

I just wanna hold you close in my bedroom

And February was the only thing that I was looking forward to

We'll never take the pictures that would have filled up our scrapbook

I'm flipping through the ones I still have, from the night we took...

All those fireworks out to the front your house

And then I spelled out "I love you", it drifted into the clouds

Our lighter didn't wanna work, but we still managed to have fun

And since that night I've never been so sure that you were the one

Everything we ever did is just a memory

All our plans have fallen through, I guess they're never happening

And I can't comprehend those four little words you said to me

"I don't love you"

Girl, what the fuck does that mean?

And I'm crying again

Slamming my door, falling into my bed

I still hear your voice inside of my head

And I think I'd honestly rather be dead

Than feeling the feeling of being your ex

The way your hair curls, the smell of your breath

Is why I so badly just wanna shut down

And pick up the razor

And cease to exist