Things i can't say Lyrics

Therapy it scares me

And I think I know why

Secretary handed me an iPad that said live or die

My mom held my hand tight

While I clicked what I needed to that day

Things that I can't say

I'd call my brother just to hear him laugh

It filled the void of what I lacked

It stitched the patches back in my lungs

My cousin was my saving grace

She taught me what it meant to pace myself

And ask for help

When I needed it most

I held my best friend while she cried

And she's all that got me through July

We walked a crooked path

Alone,

Together

I used to stand frozen in what I felt

Now I feel what I've been dealt

I used to sleep in my sister's bed

Cause I was scared of my own head

Mom said trudging through the mud is hard

And that's where I stood

Hind sight's 20/20

And I'm doing good like she said I would

I'm grateful for the dog that

Got me through this time

And though he couldn't stay for long,

He's on Heaven's timeline

And one day someone taught me how

My heart rate and breath could all calm down

When I thought of

Meadows,

And stars

And playing ball it made me anxious

But the people I was with

Somehow got me to forget

All of the things that made me stressed til I was sick

I was so tired

Never lively

Anxious thoughts controlled my brain

And now I sit here in the silence

And it's hard to feel the pain

That I felt two summers ago

Anymore

I used to live in fight or flight

So now I choose to face the light

And those scars they never go away

They only make me choose to stay.

I buried my face in the shoulder of my dad

And he held me until my breath came back

I thank them for what they did

For the things they knew I

Couldn't say.