prelude (clean version) Lyrics

Hello, hello, hello

Hello, hello

Come and walk by my side

I've come a long way, hey!

Breaking up the silence

Me in front of the audience

That is what I wanna do

You don't even notice

It has all my focus

Oh one day you'll notice yeah

I'll be the one, be the one

To prove it all and pay the price

No one thought I would pay

And this is only the start

Even if I show I'm innocent

In my mind I got it figured out

Got y'all figured out

I mean it's hard for me to explain but

I trust only myself

I've been hurt and disappointed

Happens to all but I do

Know you were all fake friends

Big lies, all that stuff I do

Know it all hurts the same

I know I'll never be the same

Okay, people talk before they could even think about it

But I think way too much

All I know I never talked I was afraid of the response

What?

You talked bad about me

And now you want to blame me

This ain't usually me

I can be a b*** and then regret it

Didn't even notice I swear

I didn't even notice no no no

No, no, no, n, no, no, no, no, no

Didn't even notice I swear

I didn't even notice no no no

It's a lie I notice everything

And then pretend I don't but trust me

I don't forget, said, I don't forget

I got some things to figure out, my anxiety

Is taking control of my thoughts

And it's inevitable

I try to hide it, the truth

I hid myself from whoever I met

Since now, wearing a mask

And now I wanna take it all off

Was I ever too close

Or were others too invasive

I guess we'll never know

I wasn't communicative

I'm still now

It makes my life a mess

And I know now

That's why I'm still a mess

Afraid of I cannot control it

What?

I cannot control people's minds and it hurts me

And I don't even want it

And now you see me thinking "Where's the Celeste I used to know?"

And I'm like "Girl I'm me and that old stuff is gone"