Zenith ft. Venting Palace & Nogoodnik Lyrics

Deadened senses to the code reds

Redefine the hurt

I'm stuck in circles reading lines in perpetuity

Feelin cornered

Over heating over eating

Beat myself into submission then pretend the hurt is new to me

Only seek my validation in nudity

Self employed self hate is a full time I do it dutifully

Only thought, underwater, overwhelming urge

To take every setback as the newest cue to leave

Been held together with duct tape and well wishes

Well well well if it isn't the hell that I cant sell my writtens

Even if the musics love

I'm still stricken that this might just be a side story

I'll one day tell my children

Another day I wake to sunny brick walls

And memories of everything I didn't finish yesterday

Already like 27 steps behind

I don't think I'll join the 27 club till I'm like 35

Blocking out the sun and now my vision going blank

Everybody nodding off

World's feeling like the tranq

Tryna fix my problems with a ratchet and a crank

So indebted baby

Threw a temper tantrum in the bank

Putting forks inside the gears

Imma stop you in your tracks

Started bleeding from my ears

But this song just made a stack

Pillie popping veteran

My ego starts to crack

On the field, frontlines

I'm the first to take the flak

Elastic man my hands they span

Across a world to wrap it up and crush it up

I'm such a fuck up

Couldn't climb the first step to the 12 step program

And I study and I cram to pass with flying colors

But a bird that's grounded finds the skies outside depressing

Isn't it when things are different are the scariest

Embarrassed just to tell my people that I'm jealous

Said it once said it twice

I don't do things outta love do it outta spite

Nothing makes no sense I'm always getting chained to vice

And I apologize but know its not enough

Let the chains tug

Not enough

Infernal engine letting off a buzz

Use my grief over what I did to fuel the flame

Things will never be the same yet I always wish they were

Late at night I toss and turn

In between two ferns

Have no courage to determine what I learned

Blocking out the sun and now my vision going blank

Everybody nodding off

World's feeling like the tranq

Tryna fix my problems with a ratchet and a crank

So indebted baby

Threw a temper tantrum in the bank

Putting forks inside the gears

Imma stop you in your tracks

Started bleeding from my ears

But this song just made a stack

Pillie popping veteran

My ego starts to crack

On the field, frontlines

I'm the first to take the flak