Lock & Key ft. Marilyn Brie Lyrics

When I try so hard just to find me

I got lost in the words that I tell myself

You have all of the things that you need

But I still don't feel like I'm enough

I just die inside 'cause I want to believe

But I twist my arms and tie a knot around my heart

Lock it down with a chain and I hide the key

Somewhere I can't find with the real me

Look up in the mirror and now I'm seeing nothing

I don't know who I am anymore and I'm sad

That'll never find who I think that I am

Don't think I ever knew me in the first place

Damn

I was waiting on a change that was up to me to make

Lost too much of me while I sit around here and I wait

Picked a pen to draw conclusions

Can't tell the truth from my delusions

I try to paint a perfect picture but I can't see straight

All the colors are looking like they the same shade

Take a glance at this mess that I've made

I'm the Picasso of this melancholy painting of pain

I'm scared of what I might find

If I find what I'm looking for

But it means more for me to be the best me than the one that's comfortable

Is the real me out there anymore

I've been dying to come home

Oh oh oh

When I try so hard just to find me

I got lost in the words that I tell myself

You have all of the things that you need

But I still don't feel like I'm enough

I just die inside 'cause I want to believe

But I twist my arms and tie a knot around my heart

Lock it down with a chain and I hide the key

Somewhere I can't find with the real me

I can't remember the last time

It felt like everything was just fine

You said that it would be alright

But it's dark in here

I can't seem to find the light

I wish I could go back

To all the times that

I knew who it was in the mirror

Can I make this clearer

Please help me help you

My mind must be playing tricks again

Like a candle burning at both ends

When will my heart mend

I need you to wake up stand tall and be free my friend

With every fiber of my being

Are you clearly seeing

Don't be overly critical

It's clear as crystal

Your mind is far too powerful

Is the real me out there anymore

I've been dying to come home

Oh oh oh

When I try so hard just to find me

I got lost in the words that I tell myself

You have all of the things that you need

But I still don't feel like I'm enough

I just die inside 'cause I want to believe

But I twist my arms and tie a knot around my heart

Lock it down with a chain and I hide the key

Somewhere I can't find with the real me