S.I.A.D.I Lyrics

Don't wanna be the same

As the other ones that came before me

Idol all the ones I admired my desire is to tell my own story

Hesitant to let them in I guess it's now or never

If I ever get the courage

All we ever need is the need it's the wants that swallow me in a ring of nervous

Swallowed in a ring of nervous

Shallow is as deep is

Shallow is as deep is

Maybe I should control my own anger

Say that I am a demon to my angel

The other night

I was ready to die

I was war I was rage

I was death in the eyes

Don't know who that was

Don't know who that was

Skin from my knuckles was torn like worn gloves

Revealing what I've buried I've carried it long enough

Time to put it down and draw a circle around us

I've been trapped in self disgust

But won't discuss

It happens

Self destruct

But won't give up

A master

At picking up tiniest pieces

And strategically place em to create another

Fake reason

For you to believe

Im doing just fine

Why don't you

Why don't you

Why don't you

Why don't you just fly

Open my wings and let go of the pain

Damn I must try

So I'm killing this

Part of me that won't let me escape

Man I'm killing this

Piece of me that never lets me break

Damn I'm really sick

I cannot except that as my fate

So I'm killing it

Every single record that I make

From here on

I've said enough to let y'all see my hate

Well he's gone

I swear to me

I'll never be the same

I'll be strong

Enough to stare the devil in the face

Like reborn

To cherish every second of the day

I'll keep going

And finally get my head out of this cage

I've leaned on

for too long

Nothing I can say but

But hold on

If I can do it you got not excuses

I'm smart enough to know that I ain't mutha fuckin

Stupid!!

Don't wanna be the same

As the other ones that came before me

Idol all the ones I admired my desire was to tell my own story

Hesitant to let them in I guess it's now or never

If I ever get the courage

All we ever need is the need it's the wants that swallow me in a ring of nervous

Swallowed in a ring of nervous

Shallow is as deep is

Shallow is as deep is

I'm strong enough to know that I don't wanna be the same

And carry pain

To the edge of all your expectations

The day I broke was the day I realized

It's no longer about me

Or better yet I realized it never was

I just knew I wasn't the same as the people I admired

And idolized

And time will reveal all lies and uncover what lies beneath the eyes and the life we excepted as our standard

This shit gets deep and I've seen things that haunt the back of eyelids I must force myself to destroy

As a boy I felt the weight of no future in front of me just a void of invalid memories and thoughts of white noise I chose my choice burned my regrets and presented it to the world

Enjoy