The Part Of Me That Wants You Lyrics

Staring at my two left feet

Drowning in this Tennessee heat

I swore I saw you down the street

My Mama swears I'm going crazy

Whiskey through my rotting teeth

Incomplete apologies

Every rhyme scheme playing on repeat

Mama's right I'm going crazy

You and me

We were never meant to be

Could you ever be

Something more than someone who hurt me

Part of me wants to believe that you could someday listen

That you could brave the conditions of my own ambitions

Put a Goddamn smile on your face

And be kind to my mom and my sister for a change

Part of me wants to surrender to your silent army

Lay my armor down and be the first to mutter, "sorry"

Part of me wants to go back to you

But the other part wants to kill the part of me that wants you

I can smell you in my bluest jeans

I can feel you in my lucid dreams

Like a wishbone in your fine cuisine

Do you wish for me (do you wish for me baby)

I can barely even breathe

Does it kill you like it kills me (it kills me)

Say it's histrionic make believe

But, I won't let you call me crazy

You and me

We were never meant to be

Could you ever be

Something more than someone who hurt me

Part of me wants to believe that you could treat me different

That you could learn to be cognizant of your inhibitions

That you could be a better man someday

But I was stupid to think you could care enough to change

Part of me wants to believe that you had good intentions

But somewhere deep in the haze you lost your own reflection

Part of me wants to go back to you

But the other part wants to kill the part of me that wants you

It's 2 AM

And I'm crying in my car again

I should be with my friends

But I'm thinking 'bout you again

And it kills me to know

That you're out there somewhere smiling

You get to laugh with your friends

Write stupid songs with your band just thriving

I hate the way they look at you

No-one knows like I do

Baby, if they only

I know they would hate you too

I hate the way you come around

And toss and turn me upside down

Hate the way you'll never feel

The feelings that I feel right now

I hate this hurt

But part of me wants you so much worse

And I know it won't work

But part of me wants to surrender

Part of wants to believe you and your so-called "virtues"

Lay my faith back in the man I always hoped was in you

Put a Goddamn smile on my face

And be strong enough to stick around and help you to change

Part of me won't let go of that gray September

I can't seem to put out your burning embers

Part of me wants to go back to you

But the other part wants to kill the part of me that wants

To fix you, to hold you like your father never has

To show you just how to make the moment last

But I can't make you brand new

No, I can't save you

I won't surrender now (I'm headed for the door)

I'm not a child anymore (not like I was before)

I will always hate you and

The part of me that wants you