worn out strings, parts 1-6 Lyrics

I'm done looking in the mirror

Pointing out flaws and seeing what's wrong

Can't help but feel like i'm not myself

Nor who i'd want to be

Only thing i'd want to do

Is to hatch into a new

This shell's grown old and tired

A kindled fire is pouring through the cracks and shining bright

I'm living for this light

And staying up at night

Hoping when i wake up, i'll be changed

Hidden (deep inside me)

Within (just a memory)

Will you (hold me tightly)

Be there (help me see clearly)

And you (begin to unfurl like a rose)

See how (your pedals fall inside the prose)

We can (i write to lift you from the page)

Live on (as one)

And if i fall asleep, will i (be the same?)

And if i fall asleep, will i (be the same?)

And if i fall asleep, will i (be the same?)

And if i fall asleep, will i…

And though hope can be found in the stitches of this long sleeved sweater

Or the folds in this oversized tee

It'll be a long time before i feel content

In this exquisite corpse i inhibit

I pick myself apart over and over

I buy and throw out and try on

I change and i cleanse and i paint

I dress i strip

I mark and i cut and i sob

I run away and fall

I keep trying to be

Yet i am not

Nor will i ever be

I thought i was done

I thought i was done

I thought i was done

I thought i was done

You left me alone

You left me alone

You left me alone

You left me alone

And if i fall asleep, will i

And if i fall asleep, will i

And if i fall asleep, will i

And if i fall asleep, will i

Who are you?

I am

Found you in a tear-eyed mess

Hidden in the subtext

Unraveled you from other signs

Weaving in between the lines

But if i fall asleep

Will i be the same when i wake up?

In dreams we fly together

Remember how it feels to run

And i've never felt freer than in those fields

Your gaze can protect me from the tears

(I play these worn out strings

I beat on blood stained heads

I see through fractured glasses

I sing with broken teeth)

I'll keep you hidden inside

See the world through your eyes

Let you out only when

I'm all alone, and even then

I'm scared of what you'll do to me

Suffocate or set me free

Smothered by your endless thoughts

Of how to change and how we'll walk

Away from what we once were

And someday i'll see you again

Laying on a bed of flowers

We'll collapse into each other

(I play these worn out strings

I beat on blood stained heads

I see through fractured glasses

I sing with broken teeth)

I feel…

I feel…

I feel…

Watch you as i fall asleep

Soft and beautiful, elegant, free

And you only exist in my dreams

But if i was you then it would all be okay

Why can't i be you?

I'll grow my hair out and wear dresses too

But no matter what i do anyway

If i was you then it would all be okay, okay, okay

You're everything i could ever be

And all that i could ever need

And if i fall asleep again

Could i be you?