IF I DIED Lyrics

(KZulu, is this you?)

Would I be proud of my life if tomorrow I was dead?

I know deep down that I'm chasing a feeling I'll never get

I'm stuck in my past with my trauma, I'm living in my head

Sometimes when it's dark at night I just wanna get lost in space

Lately I just haven't been okay (okay), I'm just surviving the day (the day), I been feeling dead since May (dead since may)

I been lacking on the weights (on the weights), I been back to smoking eighths (smoking eighths) , couple days where I ain't ate (I ain't ate)

I went and got a bussdown to represent my tears

I changed worlds nigga, now I'm facing new fears (facing new fears)

Like a smoke field, my mind is just not clear (not clear)

Stuck in slow-mo, man I wanna change gears

I aint feelin right tonight (I ain't feeling right tonight), so I'm gonna smoke alright

I'm fucking my lungs I could die (I'm fucking my lungs I could die), yeah of course I know I could die

Don't wanna feel this way (this way), it could kill me (please help me)

Been like this for too long (too long), someone save me (please save me)

Would I be proud of my life if tomorrow I was dead?

I know deep down that I'm chasing a feeling I'll never get

I'm stuck in my past with my trauma, I'm living in my head

Sometimes when it's dark at night I just wanna get lost in space

I ain't never had no love story

Yeah that type of shit scares me

I guess I'm good with ice on me

I'm so close to being happy

I wanna fly like a dove, I just wanna fly above, yeah

I a nigga been missing love, that physical type of love, uh (please save me)

Is it cuz I don't know my pops, is it cuz I don't know my mom, huh (please help me)

Is it cuz I'm too stuck up, talk too much or not enough, uh (please help me)

Would I be proud of my life if tomorrow I was dead? (please help me, please help me)

I know deep down that I'm chasing a feeling I'll never get

I'm stuck in my past with my trauma, I'm living in my head

Sometimes when it's dark at night I just wanna get lost in space (If i died last night)

(If I died last night, If I died last night, If I died last night, If I died last night, If I died last night, If I died last night,)