Self Sabotage Lyrics

They say no weapon formed against a nigga shall prosper

Yeah they say no weapon formed against a nigga shall prosper

But what if I'm the weapon

I always talk about depression, but that's because my mind is a Smith & Wesson

I'm finding a blemish in all of my blessings

Lil homie was 8 years old

Barely even started chasing his goals

When bullets ran an interception

I was still a kid depending on drinking the Devil's Jin when I probably should've just been playing Tekken

If you already knew you was destined to win

Would you find peace within

Or would you give in to your stresses

Confession

This what it feels like when you walking into regression

Doing BDSM with my demons

Why does struggling seem like a fetish

I saw my brother embracing his son

And realized their relationship's making me jealous

Cuz why my father ain't tell me he was proud of me

If he did why's it easy to forget it

Dangerous game

Niggas ain't official but somehow they be reffing

Easier to earn your stripes in the streets

That pistol blowin like a whistle

No tellin or you'll be floatin whether blood or the sea

Corrupted country is addicted to felons

I don seen stranger things from the nose bleeds

When they forced my hand I was Eleven

Anxiety got me goin with no sleep

but I'm having all these big dreams

Either all your cries for help are on mute

Or they hearing you but they ain't listening

Mental health is a problem in my city

We dealing with sick teens

Tryna have a perfect sell

I'm sacrificing these sixteens

Since 15

I been doing this thing

Pristine

Tryna be on big screens

Big jeans tryna fill

Not the Ville

You not real

You a lip sync

You know this King

In his lane shifting

Feel like Kobe going for his 6th ring

And I ain't stoppin'

Yeah they say no weapon formed against a nigga shall prosper

But what if I'm the weapon

I always talk about depression, but that's because my mind is a Smith & Wesson

I'm finding a blemish in all of my blessings

Lil homie was 8 years old

Barely even started chasing his goals

When bullets ran an interception

I was still a kid depending on drinking the Devil's Jin when I probably should've just been playing Tekken

If you already knew you was destined to win

Would you find peace within

Or would you give in to your stresses

I got so much that I'm burying

This shit is embarrassing

I don't have the confidence to disclose what I'm buried in

This weight that I carry, It ain't just my frame

It's bruises and pain

Feel like a loser ashamed

I need change ain't no sparing it

Nobody checks on James

If I take this mask off

You'd see what Jim is Carryin'

Timmy Timmy Turner I do not know where my fairy's went

I got a couple of wishes and hopefully, they will do more than my prayin' did

Like please can you help me with parenting

Though we don't know who the parent is

Apparently, this was written for me so please help me honor it and cherish it

Forgive me for fuckin' up marriages

Please don't bring the karma back on me whenever I find the one that I'm marrying

Please stop me from wanting to kill a nigga just for tryna get back who he married wit

So many niggas wishing death on me and I just thought I'd help them with the burryin'

Need a heroine as dope as heroin

Cuz Ima pharaoh

Crown on my head ain't apparel

Mental health feel like I'm living in peril

Only see light end of a barrel

I had thoughts about killing myself

Wrote no will but feelings was Feral

If a nigga try pulling my card

Cut the deck bitch I'm tearing the Tarot

I don't even share cuz always fraid of being judged

So I hide my deepest messages in flow

So unless you're reading this it's too late I already said it shit UOENO

I stood at the edge of three bridges downtown

And was looking like Eeny meeny miney moe

Figured I got so much that I'm struggling with and it'll only disappear if I go

Yeah

They hate when I'm stuck in the darkness

Obnoxious

They want me to talk less

Niggas act like depression's contagious

Amount of friends I don lost isn't far-fetched

I been struggling with making decisions

I know God and the Devil don lost bets

I don been praying and meditatin'

Only thing that been working is raw sex

Coming for me

I slid in but satan coming for me

She keep tugging on me

When she hugging on me It reminds me that nobody lovin on me

Dope dick know the plug is on me

So the heart strings she keep strumming on me

Can't help but guess that I failed a test

Wore no rubber and now God is punishin me

I was supposed to be grinding and striving so I have a million when my brother is free

I feel like I failed he bout to be bailed no longer countin years he countin the weeks

Auntie kicked me out the house knowing that I'm homeless im starvin' got nothing to eat

Got me flirting with death cuz their cousin dubbed me

So I been up

Aint been fuckin with sleep

I been doing some soul searching.

I found that I'm the light in my own darkness…

Yet at the same time my own eclipse.

Jonah Complex - The fear of reaching one's full potential

Understand that you are creation and your gift is a present meant for giving the world… be obedient to your purpose.

To doubt self is to doubt God…

Cherish the journey…

Treat every step not as not barrier in between but distance closed…

Know that Life's only responsibility is to be obstacle… and yours to hurdle.

I stood at the edge watched death at my feet… learned You can survive suicide… but will your Goals make it

Love yourself…

Cuz why would I if you don't?

Shadow Work