I really thought nights would feel like centuries

And seeing you move on would make me just a shell of me

And I'd be jealous

Hell would have to fucking freeze

Before I fell out of love with you

Started off slow

Emptied you in therapy

And when I passed a wedding

Apartment listings on that street

I would let go of ghosts of futures I had seen

Till I fell out of love with you

But now seeing you here

Across the bar

I'm falling back to where I started

I'm back to brokenhearted again

I hate the goosebumps every time you look at me

Fuck the fireworks for making me think we were meant to be

This still isn't an easy pill to swallow

And I don't think I'll be fine

Wish I could say you're my morbid curiosity

I'm doing great and don't care if you notice me

Wish I could just

Ignore the spark

Shouldn't still be this fucking hard

I hate the goosebumps every time you look at me

Fuck the fireworks for making me think we were meant to be

This still isn't an easy pill to swallow

And I don't think I'll be fine