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Heading north on 95

Out of Hackensack

Thinking about

Slamming this car

Into a rail

I'm not really gonna do it

I just think it's funny

Just how soft

A highway can make

A punchline feel

It reminded me of home

Sophomore year, I used to go

And try to crush my growing pains

Between the pedal and the floor

Dead end fences cut me off

And while the breaks were throwing sparks

I'd wonder which of us

Would be the first to go

'I only wanna die

About as much as anyone'

I have been waking up guilty

For as long as I can think

For my life

I couldn't tell you what about

This unmistakable feeling

From a funny little child

Like a wide open window

For a fly that won't get out

There were these dreams I used to have

Bouncing headfirst off the glass

One night I woke up on the stairs

With a revolver in my hands

I walked myself to the garage

Holstered all my little thoughts

And hoped nobody heard me

Sneaking back to bed

And it was all in my head

So it was all me, I guess

What really stopped it

Was the thought

Of who would wash me

Out the carpet

So when you called me yesterday

Saying you've had it better,

I'll confess, I knew exactly

what you meant

I'm not clever enough

For easy answers

But I know you wouldn't

Want me to pretend

You don't have to explain

Where you've been with your pain

Or hatch a plan to lift your curse

That ain't how it works

Just stay awake with me

I wasn't planning on sleeping

We can stay up late

And joke about the news