I Wore Capes As a Kid Lyrics

Big dreams, big dreams

Said they were coming from?

Sixteen, sixteen

Now here the bullets come

I've seen, I've seen

Seen it all

Ask me why I'm lying to myself

Point blank

I'm feeling traumatized

I've been oh so lonely lately

Never had the guts to tell you why though

Said "hell if I know"

Sometimes I wanna,

Look in the mirror and scream

At my past self

For ruining everything,

Abused my mental health

Sometimes I scream at you too

For damaging my youth

My innocence is long gone

Replaced it by the truth

Hard pills to swallow,

Like you didn't eat food

And I still feel guilty for it

Even though it wasn't my fault

It still feel like that was my fault

I wore capes, back as a kid

Was watching superhero movies

I know I could never save you

We went through hell so I could prove it

I wore capes back as a kid

Was watching superhero movies

I know I could never save you

We went through hell so I could prove it

Now I'm 21 years old

I never had the strength to finish this

The pain went and got worse

And I never learned to diminish it

I went to get some therapy

Empowered now I'm feeling it

I gave away myself like that was charity

And that shit wasn't my fault

I know it wasn't yours too

These patterns keep repeating

The lessons that I've gone through

'Cuz life will move in cycles

I'm choosing different actions

The version that is gone now

Was needed for protection

I'm struggling with self worth

Depending on my self hurt

I never put myself first

And that shit isn't my fault

I know it wasn't yours too

I know you never meant to

Please know that this is bigger

Than you were or I was

You just hit my triggers

My patterns start to fade now

I'm feeling more secure

The man in the mirror

Doesn't look the same anymore

I wish I was a god

Said I wish I was a god

Like a bird, or messiah

We could float much higher

How I wish I was a god

How I...

Said I wish I was a god

Like a bird, or messiah

I could give a little help

We could float much higher

I could save you from yourself

I need to focus on myself

Said I wish I was a god

Like a bird, or messiah

I could give a little help

We could float much higher

I could save you from yourself

Nobody really needs my help

Now give me pain

Give me pleasure

Give me everything,

Desire

Give me highs

Give me lows

I want everything,

The fire

Give me heart

And the strength

Yeah the courage

In my soul

Plant the seed

Let it grow

Never be the same no more

I awaken from the depths,

No more pain

No more stress

I could fly

If you'd let me

See my wings

I attest

All your dreams

Coming through

All my fears

Done fell through

All my tears gave me power

And my lessons gave me proof

Open heart

You can hurt me

I'm not bothered by my pride

Feel the warmth

In my spirit

I'm so thankful for my guide

Now I see

Through the smoke

Pulled the curtain

Fake beliefs

I could fly,

If you'd let me

See my wings

As I grieve

Now I Shine

Hope you see

Hope you're proud

This new me

Not the same as before

Not my heart that you tore

Through the wire

Made it out

I hope I could show you how,

But for now

I'll be loving in you in silence for a while,

I hope you make it