Anxieties/Paranoia/Drugs Lyrics

Is there someone watching me?

Or is there someone behind me?

Or is there something in my head?

Telling me that I should be dead

But wait, is everything okay?

I guess I live another day

I hope people don't see

What is happening to me

I go to work, I go to school

And I still feel like I'm a fool

I've fallen for everyone's tricks

They still tell me I'm weak as sticks

But when I get out of this place

I can finally make a name

For myself in the future

The drugs are like a suture

I get used, I get mistreated

Constantly I feel defeated

But life throws rocks at me

I have to open my eyes and see

It's just the name of the game

And there is no one to blame

Except for myself right now

A/P/D is not a desire

Yeah-yeah, a desire

Yeah-yeah, a desire

Yeah-yeah, a desire

Yeah-yeah

Hey, how much weed can I smoke?

Is it possible to toke?

This much stuff in just one hour?

I feel like I've lost all power

They put beer in front of me

And the bottle is controlling

It makes me crack it open

I feel like I can begin

I begin to lose my mind

Spiraling all the time

Vomiting into the grass

Being drunk just hurts real bad

Pass out on the bathroom floor

Leave the lights on, it's important

Wake up at three AM

This story has just began

I get used, I get mistreated

Constantly I feel defeated

But life throws rocks at me

I have to open my eyes and see

It's just the name of the game

And there is no one to blame

Except for myself right now

A/P/D is not a desire

Yeah-yeah, a desire

Yeah-yeah, a desire

Yeah-yeah, a desire

Yeah-yeah

I want one day where I'm happy

I don't need drugs or drinks to tap in

'Cause I can't find peace in anything

I wish this story had an end

'Cause I want to finally be done

With the bad behaviors

It's killing me, it's a curse

Can I please just go in reverse?

I have desires I have desires

A desire to be happy for once

I get used, I get mistreated

Constantly I feel defeated

But life throws rocks at me

I have to open my eyes and see

It's just the name of the game

And there is no one to blame

Except for myself right now

A/P/D is not a desire

Yeah-yeah, a desire

Yeah-yeah, a desire

Yeah-yeah, a desire

Yeah-yeah