Sometimes ft. VVN & Chany Lyrics

Cynthia's alarm wakes her at eight AM

She hits snooze then fades to sleep again

Lately, waking up's become a chore

Ever since her course her life has been a bore

"Can't feel anymore so why bother live?

These pills make me numb; can't find my happiness

Feeling like there is nothing left to give

What can I offer in a world where everything is negative?

How do I stay positive when all around me seems grey?

Like this English weather, clouds keep lingering in my brain

Turn on the news and all I see is the same

Same old stories nothing but violence and pain

When will the sun come out? When will I see a brighter day?

Sometimes I wish I could fly away

Trying to find a way out of this sunken place

But I can't seem to get out

Friends say since the pills i'm not quite the same

When they ask me how I feel this is what I say:"

Sometimes it feels like my days are all grey

Sometimes I want to get up out this place

Sometimes it feels there's no sun in sight

And sometimes I feel like i'm done with life

Oh

Sometimes I don't know where to go

Simply want to fly away

Looking for a brighter day

Cynthia knew a guy, Lenny was his name. Everyday

Lenny would check on her to see if she was ok

These simpliest of things Cynthia'd appreciate

"Someone who listens to what I have to say"

Those moments would make her feel like she mattered

Wanting to ask the same but Lenny weren't one for chatter

She imagined herself saying "How are you? Are you alright?"

Lenny would nod as usual and say "yeah, i'm fine."

"Lenny, we should hang out more. Gimme a call sometime!"

But she didn't do this all she did was smile

Then the two parted ways after they said their goodbyes.

She will always 'member that time...

Than later that night chilling with some friends

Watching Love Island, holding hands with Ben

Posting on instagram how she was grateful for her friends

Don't know where she would be if it weren' t for them.

That was the same night she was told Lenny had died

Jumped off a bridge saying he wanted to fly;

When she'd heard Lenny had commited suicide

All she could do was cry, what a beautiful life

"Why? Why? Why did he have to die?" She felt helpless

"Why wouldn't he ask for help? I should of helpped him!"

She stopped herself "how could I be so selfish?

He was a precious soul, this I wish I could tell him

If only I had been there for him like he was for me

Maybe he'd still be here..."

She went over to see Lenny's mum the next day

Who had tear marks that stained her face.

Lenny's mum didn't know what went on his head

She said he'd left a letter and this is what it read:

Sometimes it feels like my days are all grey

Sometimes I want to get up out this place

Sometimes it feels there's no sun in sight

And sometimes I feel like i'm done with life

Oh

Sometimes I don't know where to go

Simply want to fly away

Looking for a brighter day

Lenny never knew how to talk about his feelings

People'd ask how are you but they didn't really mean it

(When he talked they look bored so he'd play like MJ and beat it)

Screaming into his pillow to stop himself from weeping

"Don't want to be a burden so inside is were I keep it

Swallow it down. It's not important. It doesn't matter

They say mind over matter but most the time my life's in tatters

My mind is scattered from all this mindless chatter

That tells me l don't matter. Why do i exist?

Like if I were to shatter into a thousand pieces

Would people blink or not bat an eyelid? I think the latter

Don't know how to express, so instead I keep silent

Quietly sat here on my own, man, I feel like an island

Saw a post from Cynthia happy with her friends

And i'm here on this bridge wanting to meet my end

If I were a bird I could fly free from this place

Fly, escape high into space, be free from all  this pain

Tomorrow it'd just be the same

Same old pain. Nothing but pain

So tonight i'm gunna fly cos it's never gunna change

(Slowly fades out)

Never gunna change, it's never gunna change

Just want to be a bird and fly free from all this pain...

This is to those who suffer in silence

Who to themselves commit a quiet violence

Know that you are not alone

Know that when those dark days that come in waves

Drifting ever so slowly like hurricanes

That that storm will pass eventually

The sun will come out and you will see a brighter day.

We never really know what someone is going through

So know that that smile or simply asking how are you

And taking the time out to listen

Can brighten up someones day and be the difference.