Expected Lyrics

This is not what I expected

Cause It's been hard but I learned some lessons

Still not enough yeah I'm still stressing

But at the end of the day I count my blessings

(Alright that's it I'm rolling with that)

Yeah count em up

Like fuck I'm still breathing so that should count for some

Like why am I making music sounding stupid dumb

I feel so sunken like something is causing me to run

Probably the fact they called me trash like every single day

Probably the fact when I get a chance I just always walk away

Cause anxiety just pulls me down

Into that sunken place

And dark thoughts swirl in my brain

Swear depression is on the way again

This is not what I expected

Cause It's been hard but I learned some lessons

Still not enough yeah I'm still stressing

But at the end of the day I count my blessings

Yeah that's all that you can do

You can't really pick and choose what is going to

Happen round the corner better tie your shoes

Lace em up real tight cause you gon have to run it's true

I got Demons in my corner telling me to lose

I want angels by my side so I can finally push on through

I can't get off of these pills and it is really not that cool

Cause I never touched a xan or perky this is something new

Why the fuck would they give me something that would make me feel worse

These days I say fuck it all I may as well just be cursed

Ima jump up off of that stage someday and hopefully this works

It's a far fetched thought if you think about it and that truly hurts

This is not what I expected

Cause It's been hard but I learned some lessons

Still not enough yeah I'm still stressing

But at the end of the day I count my blessings

(Alright, lets do this)

This is not what I expected

It's been hard I learned some lessons

Still not enough yeah I'm still stressing

But at the end of the day I count my-ah fuck it

Yeah at the end of the day

At the end of the day I count my

This is not what I expected

Cause It's been hard I learned some lessons

Still not enough yeah I'm still stressing

But at the end of the day I count my blessings