Hopeless Lyrics

Pops never picked up the phone, left me and my mom alone,

Before I was even grown, had to get it on my own,

Mama tried to make it stable, but that house wasn't a home,

How's a boy supposed to be a man if his father is gone?

I remember, I remember it so vivid, April 27th every year, waiting for a visit,

Hoping for a letter, praying for a call, If I'm being honest, dawg, I was waiting on it all,

But the thing I wanted most was an "I love you",

An "even if you don't believe me, son, I love you",

Left alone to deal with anger, I can't lie, that shit was tough,

Mama working double shifts to make sure we had enough,

Got me everything I needed, kept food in my tummy,

I remember how she cried when I asked why he didn't love me,

I remember the hurt, I remember the best times,

And remember the worst, I remember,

My mama took to the bottle, that bottle took her whole life,

Now we arguing and fighting, almost every single night,

Mentally I'm going crazy, cause I know something ain't right,

And I be lying to the world when they ask if I'm alright,

Everybody see a change in me, but I won't let them know I'm hurting,

Smiling through the pain, like "naw I'm good, everything is perfect",

She was so strong,

Even when the world was shaking, she would still hold on,

Even when the world was ending, she could still go on,

So determined, so focused and now it's all gone,

I wish she could see what I see and her,

Been through hell and back, but I won't tell the world that's me and her,

Know she still think about my father, and that's even worse,

Cause one of the worst feelings in the world, is being hurt,

From poverty and welfare to heading for the top,

Mama, you could be amazing, but your drinking gotta stop,

It's just so frustrating, man,

To know that somebody has the strength to overcome,

But they just let the shit keep going the way it is,

I used to say "if you like it, I love it", but,

It ain't nothing about this shit that I love mama,

I still pray for you every day though,

I love you